It was several priests, and several parishes of different ‘jurisdictions’. I actually have Orthodox friends that commiserate with me, two are ex-Catholic, one ex-Lutheran, one ex-Methodist and one a cradle. I have been on a journey all my life, half a century, and yes I mean a spiritual closeness to God. I settled with one Orthodox parish simply because it was the closest allowing me to attend all the services, feasts, vespers, matins, Pascha takes your breath away…I attended a whole liturgical year. All I ever felt was an intense sadness, left in tears almost every time. I had to stand back from both churches and evaluate them. Adoration in a Catholic church helped me recuperate. I have felt close to God ALL my life, he was NOT with me in an Orthodox liturgy no matter the smells, the bells, the chanting, the fasting. I wanted the Orthodox liturgy. My hands were tied there, I was NOT Orthodox. I am a lifelong Christian, a fellow believer in Christ, a lot further along than the Ethiopian that Philip met, yet not worthy of baptism or chrismation, just interrogation.
Do you think I didnt try asking questions about Orthodoxy on Eastern Orthodox forums? They are very hostile, even towards each other. I once asked a non-canonical priest to describe that situation. It was like I was dialoguing with the anti-Christ. Lord have mercy. I know of what I speak.