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LoveTherese
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Hi everyone,
Without going into much detail I am currently moving and have other stresses in my life that are heavy crosses. In all this Im very blessed with a happy home, wonderful husband and children and so much more.
Almost every day I would go to Mass at 8am before I start work because I felt I needed the Lord in me to deal with evil people at work. I still had horrible days when I came home from work so it wasn’t like magic, I have to believe it would have been worse had I not gone to Mass.
But as of about a week and a half ago my stress levels and anxiety have gotten a bit worse and this morning I felt bad because I knew if I left NOW I could make it. But after praying (a really good prayer that made me feel good) I felt that God was ok with me just having my coffee, reading the Magnificat, and saying the rosary on my way to the bus stop.
Am I crazy to have had peace in this decision. Am I falling for the enemy’s subtle tactics to keep me away from the highest form of worship and praise in receiving my Lord by telling me it’s ok not to rush when you’re very stressed in this season in your life and that I shouldn’t feel like I won’t have Gods protection if I miss Mass or be as close to Him as I want because I’m not putting in a better effort.
Yesterday I didn’t go to Mass and when I got home from work I went to my room and thanked God for bringing me home from this battle safe. ( My husband gave me that nice outlook of being at work is like a battle. Many of our coworkers are captives to the enemy and they don’t treat me kindly at all-there’s lots of gossip, jealousy just like high school drama, they make me feel insecure ).
I jjust don’t want to be LESS protected by God on the days I miss Mass because I mentally am too tired to rush and (I hate to say this) rather, in this condition, have my coffee, read the daily readings and relax before beginning my battle day.
I really appreciate your thoughts as my brothers and sisters in Christ and fellow servants and soldiers in this battle. Is there a Sargeant Major that’s going to yell at me and tell me to get up and stop being lazy in this battle than I am happy to take your advice !
Without going into much detail I am currently moving and have other stresses in my life that are heavy crosses. In all this Im very blessed with a happy home, wonderful husband and children and so much more.
Almost every day I would go to Mass at 8am before I start work because I felt I needed the Lord in me to deal with evil people at work. I still had horrible days when I came home from work so it wasn’t like magic, I have to believe it would have been worse had I not gone to Mass.
But as of about a week and a half ago my stress levels and anxiety have gotten a bit worse and this morning I felt bad because I knew if I left NOW I could make it. But after praying (a really good prayer that made me feel good) I felt that God was ok with me just having my coffee, reading the Magnificat, and saying the rosary on my way to the bus stop.
Am I crazy to have had peace in this decision. Am I falling for the enemy’s subtle tactics to keep me away from the highest form of worship and praise in receiving my Lord by telling me it’s ok not to rush when you’re very stressed in this season in your life and that I shouldn’t feel like I won’t have Gods protection if I miss Mass or be as close to Him as I want because I’m not putting in a better effort.
Yesterday I didn’t go to Mass and when I got home from work I went to my room and thanked God for bringing me home from this battle safe. ( My husband gave me that nice outlook of being at work is like a battle. Many of our coworkers are captives to the enemy and they don’t treat me kindly at all-there’s lots of gossip, jealousy just like high school drama, they make me feel insecure ).
I jjust don’t want to be LESS protected by God on the days I miss Mass because I mentally am too tired to rush and (I hate to say this) rather, in this condition, have my coffee, read the daily readings and relax before beginning my battle day.
I really appreciate your thoughts as my brothers and sisters in Christ and fellow servants and soldiers in this battle. Is there a Sargeant Major that’s going to yell at me and tell me to get up and stop being lazy in this battle than I am happy to take your advice !
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