…As far as it not having anything to do wit the debate, I was making comparisons. **My mind is comparing and contrasting all my waking hours, **and that will never stop.
I have not read all the comments posted since I left for our Christmas trip, but it seems to me that what you are doing is looking at what others have and what you have not and comparing, comparing, comparing.
What I would highly recommend is prayer. I remember the first time I had a *Really Serious Problem!!! *and our pastor recommended I pray. I had not been back in the Church for very long, and I totally freaked out. Pray!!! I needed some *Action!!! *I couldn’t believe that he didn’t *help *me, but just told me to pray.
I did not understand how prayer works. It’s not that you will necessarily get your heart’s desire, but that you will be putting yourself into the spiritual realm which is really where we belong–we are here only temporarily but there eternally. And you will feel better.
When I was a teen, I remember my friend’s parents came to pick me up to babysit his younger brother. His parents were holding hands and seemed to be really in love. I envied that.
Six months later, they were separated.
We never know what is going on inside those houses. You are sick, and your wife is sick, and my friend’s little boy is sick with leukemia, and there are people around me who are dying… where I live there is a really high percentage of old people.
If you had lived 100 years ago, *no one *would be getting better, and a lot of people now alive would be dead because they had no penicillin. People’s houses were much colder than they are now, and they had to cut, saw, and haul wood or else pay someone else to do it.
Right now, you are so focusing on “comparing and contrasting” your situation with that of what you see of others’ situations that you think it would be better to have a health insurance “solution” which includes the killing of innocent children than to continue your own suffering. I do feel for you–your situation is very difficult and I am sure that you are feeling a lot of fear, but if someone were holding a baby in front of you and said that they could fix all your problems but they’d kill the baby to do it, what would you say?
I have been working on this for a long time; I am not good at remembering or doing it, but when I get emotionally upset–angry, fearful, worried–I try to remember to pray *instead. *If nothing else, the prayers help others, but they do help me. When I contemplate Christ on the Cross, His Passion and death, then it really puts my concerns to rest, even when my concerns are about my husband’s not having worked for months and our getting to the end of what little we saved from before, etc. I remember that things looked really bad for Christ at that time, and that my problems are paltry in comparison.