Please keep in mind that I was born, raised, and spent over 40 years in evangelical Protestant churches before converting to Catholicism. This colors everything I learn in the Catholic Church. I am willing to be re-taught, but in my heart of hearts, there will always be certain doors that will squeak or fail to move when people try to open them. Maybe when I’ve been Catholic as long as I was Protestant, I will think differently.
Keep in mind that many other evangelicals are converting to Catholicism, and very likely have some of the same mindset that I have.
The more I read from “Latin” supporters, the more I get the impression that they are seeking an emotional “experience.” They may express it eloquently, but when I remove all the good writing and study what they are really saying, they are basically saying that Latin makes them “feel” more reverent or “spiritual.”
My background has made me very wary of “experiences.” We were taught from childhood that we walk by faith and that we trust in facts. We should never rely on our feelings or seek feelings. We were taught to avoid churches that provide a “worship experience.”
And I’m still wary of “experiential worship.”
I like the tangibles in the Catholic Church. I love the sacraments–real “matter” that God uses for spiritual purposes.
But these tangibles don’t necessarily give me any warm fuzzies or inspire emotional highs in me. To me, they are facts, and that’s why I was able to accept them as truth. Yes, I occasionally get emotional during Mass, because I am aware of Jesus’ True Presence. But I don’t seek this “emotional experience,” and if I fail to become emotional during Mass, I am still the recipient of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament. It’s true no matter how I feel.
To me, as a former evangelical, the Catholic Christian who “feels” that the Latin Mass is more “spiritual” is no different than the Pentecostal Christian who “feels” that a charistmatic-style worship time with speaking in tongues is more “spiritual,” or an African-American Christian who “feels” that dancing in the aisles is more “spiritual,” or a Lutheran Christian who “feels” that a complete orchestra and pipe organ is more “spiritual.”
I accept the recommendations of the Vatican that more Latin be incorporated into the Mass for the sake of remembering and honoring Catholic history and tradition. To me, that is a logical reason and has nothing to do with emotions or atmosphere or feelings.
I hope this makes sense. It is difficult to try to convey an evangelical Protestant mindset to people who haven’t lived it.
BTW, to those who say that anyone can understand Latin, I beg to differ. I took it in high school, and I still don’t get it.
