After vacillating in between various worldviews, I’m leaning towards Catholicism again.
I think Catholicism is a superior form of Christianity for a number of reasons. One is that it takes human virtue seriously. Whereas many Protestants, and especially Calvinists, seem to lay an emphasis on “total depravity”, the idea that we are completely “dead” in our sins (with no qualification) and that our only hope is to give up on trying to be good by surrendering to Jesus, I think a healthier approach is to say that, while no sinful human being is perfect, and is in fact very flawed/compromised, he or she has some measure of goodness, of virtue, to bring to the table, that life is not all vain or futile, that our works/decisions/virtues actually do mean something, and determine our fate. That we have, in a word, freedom. Free will.
Also, I recently took communion and felt myself enlivened. I think there is power in the Eucharist. If the Eucharist is “only a symbol” then I would say, along with Flannery O’Connor (herself a learned author and symbolist), “to he** with it.” Jesus’ institution of this sacrament, the emphasis he laid on its reality, the seemingly unequivocal and uncompromising language in the Gospels , along with all the miracles and so on, seems to validate it, along with my experience. If it were only a symbol, it would be meaningless. Protestants don’t take it seriously for that very reason, and it seems to me Catholicism and Orthodoxy give it the proper respect.
Those are just two reasons, but I think there are more. Maybe I’ll post later…