For those who are thinking about religious life, it may be important to understand that there are different forms of religious life. The best way to get that understanding is by exposure.
There are monastic communities for men and women – nuns and monks
There are clerical mendicant communities for men – friars, such as Carmelites, Dominicans, Augustinians, Passionists and Trinitarians
There are lay mendicant orders for men – The Franciscans are lay orders, even though many of the brothers are ordained. The order is lay, because everyone has a voice, voite and the right to hold office. The emphasis is placed on contemplation and fraternal life. Ministry flows out of that. The particular ministry depends on the region and the gifts of the friars.
There are clerical communities for men – religious orders and religious congregations of priests. These often have some lay brothers, but they do hold office or have much voice in the community. Jesuits, Salesians, Oblates, Missionaries of Charity, Fathers of Mercy and so forth
There are lay congregations – religious communities of sisters or brothers. These are apostolic in nature with a common prayer life and other community structures. The member are lay and they make simple vows, not solemn. These are the sisters and brothers that you would see in the active apostolate.
There are institutes of apostolic life – communities where the members make vows, live in community and have a particular focus in ministry. Some make temporary vows that they renew annually such as the Daughters of Charity of St. Vincent de Paul and the Sisters of Charity of St. Vincent and the Vincentian Fathers, the Maryknoll Fathers and others. Canonically, they are not religious, but their daily life is patterned on religious life.
There are also secular institutes – communities of secular men and women who live together, follow a specific charism, they may or may not have a specific ministry, some make private vows and others make some other kind of commitment to the life and work of the institute, such as Opus Dei, the FSSP, the Madonna House Apostolate, the Brothers and Sisters of Charity
There are secular orders – these have often been called Third Orders, not because of their rank in the religious family, but because they are usually founded in that chronological order (male religious, women religious and secular brothers and sisters). These communities make perpetual vows, but live them according to their state in life. Some are married, single, celibate, deacons, priests, bishops, and they are a true order with rule, constitution, public canonical profession, follow a particular charism of a religious family and their focus is usually fraternity and whatever ministry is appropriate to the charism of the founder. They may live with their families, alone or in small community cells.
Finally, there are individuals who live alone, make private profession of the evangelical counsels that their spiritual director or the local bishop receives in the name of the Church and they follow their spirituality and their ministry. Most are celibate and some individuals are monastic, while others are apostolic and others are hermits.
The Holy Spirit has been very generous to the Church with the gift of many charisms and forms of the evangelical life. Unless one is exposed to them, one may believe that there is no place for a consecrated life for them. The call to the perfection of charity is for everyone, including those who do not follow a particular community or religious family. However, someone who wants to live the perfection of charity more intensely should look at all of these options or as many as attract your attention.
Just because they attract your attention does not commit you in any way. Besides, one never knows what one will learn and use in their spiritual journey, even if they don’t embrace one of these life styles. Much can be learned and generalized to other situations, including marriage and family.
I live with a Franciscan brother who is very Teresian in his spirituality. He incorporates the Franciscan and Teresian Carmelite models very well into his life. He is a joy to live with. We are a contemplative community that ministers to the disabled and seniors. But this brother is very much a monastic. He does not go out to do ministry. His life is spent in prayer and manual labor, even though he is a medical doctor. The hidden life of prayer and asceticism is his gift, lived within the context of a Franciscan fraternity. We have a brother who is a priest. He is very much a Franciscan brother to people with disabilities. He spends his day teaching the blind. On weekends he helps out at parishes with confessions and mass. During the week he is one of the brothers.
Just like these brothers, some people carry certain gifts over into marriage and other vocations. Looking and learning is good, even if you do not enter any of these communities.
Br. JR, OSF
. Another problem is I don’t know where. 
An additional to my worries. 
This is my fate. lol “Do not be afraid” this words consoles me so much.
I’m being more and more regular and my dicipline is strict - good thing because I pray daily, etc.
But I think I might have a long “pre-pre-pre-pre-noviciate” as you said… 
