okay let me tackle that from another angle…
Modern Education instills in us a mind of tackling problems logically and systematically…which usually involves proof.
Religion’s lack of proof is one major factor why non-religiousness is the fastest growing faction in the world today.
Perhaps it is not the lack of proof, but the heightened need for proof that is the reason for the rise of non-religiousness. It may be that that need has arisen precisely because of a lack of trust, which, as CS Lewis points out in the Abolition of Man, comes expectedly as the result of the vacuity that results when man assumes power over the very thing, nature, that allows him to have any power whatsoever in the first place. Nature is no longer trusted and the intentions behind the will to power in man certainly cannot be, so what is there left? Trust in God, perhaps? Yes but what kind of God? A God of power? That is apparently the kind you seem to be wanting by demanding that he demonstrate the power to overwhelm the “will to power” in man!
You brought up the doubts of Thomas as being like yours in a previous post. I submit they were not in the least like yours, but precisely the opposite of yours.
We are called to know, trust, love and serve God. Thomas knew, loved and wanted to serve the true God that he had come to know in Jesus. When Jesus appeared, Thomas doubted the appearance precisely because he had trouble trusting that the “awe” factor of Jesus’ resurrected body was in fact real; the kind of sublime goodness of Jesus that Thomas had come to know as manifesting the “reality” underlying reality, was not the surreal quality he was seeing before his eyes. That is why he wanted to touch the wounds of Jesus to make sure this was reality and not a figment of it or an hallucination.
Thomas did not trust the “awe” factor, you, on the other hand, are demanding it.
You seem to be demanding a wonderous sign to disrupt a caracature of reality that you have created in your mind. Something to drive away a bad dream. Unlike Thomas who knew, loved and wanted to serve God, but only needed to be certain that this was the God he trusted, you seem to want a sign in order to begin to know, trust, love and serve a god only if he can conjure up a wonderous deed worthy of your attention. These are two very different forms of doubt.
I suggest you read (by clicking here ->) "
The God as Saviour and Teacher: An Essay of the Imagination" from
Philosophical Fragments by Soren Kierkegaard especially from “
Suppose then a king who loved a humble maiden…”
A couple of quotes from the essay:
Since we found that the union could not be brought about by an elevation it must be attempted by a descent. Let the learner be x. In this x we must include the lowliest; for if even Socrates refused to establish a false fellowship with the clever, how can we suppose that the God would make a distinction! In order that the union may be brought about, the God must therefore become the equal of such a one, and so he will appear in the likeness of the humblest. But the humblest is one who must serve others, and the God will therefore appear in the form of a servant. But this servant-form is no mere outer garment, like the king’s beggar-cloak, which therefore flutters loosely about him and betrays the king; it is not like the filmy summer-cloak of Socrates, which though woven of nothing yet both conceals and reveals. It is his true form and figure. For this is the unfathomable nature of love, that it desires equality with the beloved, not in jest merely, but in earnest and truth. And it is the omnipotence of the love which is so resolved that it is able to accomplish its purpose, which neither Socrates nor the king could do, whence their assumed figures constituted after all a kind of deceit.
Also:
*Every other form of revelation would be a deception in the eyes of love; for either the learner would first have to be changed, and the fact concealed from him that this was necessary (but love does not alter the beloved, it alters itself); or there would be permitted to prevail a frivolous ignorance of the fact that the entire relationship was a delusion. (This was the error of paganism.) Every other form of revelation would be a deception from the standpoint of the divine love. *
What do you want? To know and love God? Or to know through his demonstration by wonders and signs that he is worthy of being known and loved by you? Are you taking him as he is or only if he shows some level of merit? Do you love the poor and wretched, the rejected and broken or only those powerful enough to provoke wonder?
Perhaps you do not see God because he has become that which is poor and wretched in you - he loves you more than you love yourself. Instead of running from that to the “shiny” and glamorous appearances and signs that will soon fade and disappear, try looking for the substantial reality of what is that will always be. God may be hiding where you least expect.