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Greg27
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I guess what made me start to lapse was realising I couldn’t accept certain teachings on good conscience (particularly those relating to the ordination of women; I believe there is no good reason why women should not be ordained to the priesthood). Another was seeing in the Church, many conservative or fundamentalist Catholics who seemed clean to rid the church of any ‘liberal’ filth, which basically meant many people with ‘liberal’ ideas. Unfortunately as someone who has always been open-minded, I realised many of my questions and ideas came right under this heading, and I thought in the CC I could escape the nasty and narrow-minded fundamentalism I’d seen in Protestantism, but unfortunately that was not the case.
The Church’s crackdown on theologians such as Hans Kung and the deeply conservative stance of Ratzinger on many issues, was to me a ominous statement of what might happen to someone who could be labelled rather easily as a ‘heretic’ or ‘dissenter.’ I’ve noticed on these forums especially, quite a few Catholics seem keen to heresy hunt and find anyone who has the slightest dissent from the magesterium, and to remove them from the church, or to hurl the Code of Canon Law or statements from the Popes in their face when they sense ‘heresy’ or ‘dissent.’ I found this encounter on many occasions, especially online, and I began to get the sense I had to sacrifice my reason and my intellect and just ‘believe’ or else I was committing some kind of mortal sin.
I thought about this a lot and ultimately I felt like my mind was being strangled and stifled, and the freedom and peace I sought in conversion only being turned into pain, angst and concern. I think it was only a matter of time before someone would point out I am not a ‘true’ Catholic and I would have to leave the Church.
I also had increasing philosophical problems about the human mind being able to know God, after studying the Philosophy of Kant and Descartes.
I also had problems with the strong Phariseeism I was seeing in some Catholics towards ‘sinners’ and also arrogance towards those of non-Catholic or non-Christian religions.
I thought about this a lot, wavering and being reluctant to leave, but then I saw a post from someone here who effectively said it was his desire to see the medieval Inquisition re-established and for ‘liberal’ heretics who were destroying the church to be tortured and burned at the stake. I realised I would most likely be one such fellow in this person’s eyes, and that helped me realise I had made the right decision.
Perhaps one day if the church focuses less on making everyone follow authority and more in its wonderful traditions of contemplative spirituality, social justice and compassion, and charity, I might consider returning, but so long as there are people there who want to flush ‘liberals’ or those who think twice about things proposed for belief down the proverbial toilet, or have them burned alive, I can’t see myself being welcome or helpful in any way for the Church.
The Church’s crackdown on theologians such as Hans Kung and the deeply conservative stance of Ratzinger on many issues, was to me a ominous statement of what might happen to someone who could be labelled rather easily as a ‘heretic’ or ‘dissenter.’ I’ve noticed on these forums especially, quite a few Catholics seem keen to heresy hunt and find anyone who has the slightest dissent from the magesterium, and to remove them from the church, or to hurl the Code of Canon Law or statements from the Popes in their face when they sense ‘heresy’ or ‘dissent.’ I found this encounter on many occasions, especially online, and I began to get the sense I had to sacrifice my reason and my intellect and just ‘believe’ or else I was committing some kind of mortal sin.
I thought about this a lot and ultimately I felt like my mind was being strangled and stifled, and the freedom and peace I sought in conversion only being turned into pain, angst and concern. I think it was only a matter of time before someone would point out I am not a ‘true’ Catholic and I would have to leave the Church.
I also had increasing philosophical problems about the human mind being able to know God, after studying the Philosophy of Kant and Descartes.
I also had problems with the strong Phariseeism I was seeing in some Catholics towards ‘sinners’ and also arrogance towards those of non-Catholic or non-Christian religions.
I thought about this a lot, wavering and being reluctant to leave, but then I saw a post from someone here who effectively said it was his desire to see the medieval Inquisition re-established and for ‘liberal’ heretics who were destroying the church to be tortured and burned at the stake. I realised I would most likely be one such fellow in this person’s eyes, and that helped me realise I had made the right decision.
Perhaps one day if the church focuses less on making everyone follow authority and more in its wonderful traditions of contemplative spirituality, social justice and compassion, and charity, I might consider returning, but so long as there are people there who want to flush ‘liberals’ or those who think twice about things proposed for belief down the proverbial toilet, or have them burned alive, I can’t see myself being welcome or helpful in any way for the Church.