I cannot explain, nor can science, where I and everything else I can perceive with my senses has come from. While it may be a leap of faith to suggest that one’s consciousness is eternal, the fact of one’s consciousness begs for an eternal explanation.
Consciousness is definitely a mystery, at least for now. I know there are metaphysical demonstrations that the “mind” is immaterial, and Dr Edward Feser does a good job explaining them. With that said, I can’t help but wonder if this is, at the end of the day, a “god in the gaps” argument. “We can’t explain consciousness so it must be supernatural/eternal/immortal/etc.” Just my speculation.
I can’t accept a god that cares nothing for us, that popped the universe into something from nothing for nothing. Perhaps there’s a Pascal’s Wager to be had there, too, that it’s better to believe there’s a purpose, if you have to choose between that or purposelessness.
I’m inclined to agree. God as the “first domino” isn’t a compelling argument.
As for Pascal’s Wager… I am less sure.
When Blaise Pascal developed his wager, he had already experienced a profound supernatural vision. He explained that it’s better to believe in God and be wrong than to believe in nothing and be held accountable. Certainly that’s true. But the wager, in and of itself, is insufficient. I can’t make myself believe in something based on fear tactics. Not in my heart. Does that make sense?
So why Christianity? Well I believe Christianity does in fact have all the answers. It embraces Natural Law, which appeals to my logic. The Golden Rule does too. I can rationally see the ways in which Christian morals create a more ordered, beneficial world. But that’s not faith, that’s just morals, and it’s hardly specific to Catholicism, or even necessarily Christianity.
I just finished Chesterton’s
Orthodoxy. One part that stood out to me was toward the end. Chesterton pointed out that one might accept the superior Christian morals but reject the supernatural elements (like Thomas Jefferson, who famously cut the theological parts out of his Bible and kept the humanistic morality). He explained why that was wrong.
The miracles I’ve seen, the prayers answered, you will also not believe.
You’re probably right. Shame on me for being like Thomas, but God has never manifested himself to me, and I can’t shake the materialism. It seems that faith, belief in a deity and purpose and eternal life is little more than wishful thinking. The desire for these things is not evidence of their existence. Man I hate depression.
I so badly desire truth but I’m afraid I’m searching for something that doesn’t exist at all. I’m seriously trying to find answers, to figure out what I actually believe and why… perhaps I will, perhaps I’ll never know. What a meaningless and scary thing to spend life “chasing after the wind.” There I go… quoting Ecclesiastes. Nihilism before it was cool. But what else is there?
Thank you @Hebrews12 for the thoughtful post.