quote: GraceDK
Are the wounds really so deep that you cannot accept comfort? Maybe you should join the “family forum” and write about your struggles and suffering. I did so once while I was deeply depressed and I got so comforted…
I’m sorry that I missed reading this post, GraceDK.
To know what deep depression is, from experience,
will, I have found, make you that more prepared to
speak to others about the love and the mercy of God.
God so often turns suffering, in this way, to pure gold.
I have found, too, that being severely ill in mind, does help to
understand the Passion of Jesus. Does help to learn what
mercy is.
When mercy is seen as “softness,” where the rigors of
doctrine do not apply, because the person is too ill,
a kind of puzzlement may follow. The ill in mind may not
“fit” the “doctrine.” As if God relates to human beings
as “units,” and not as those He has uniquely created
to live for eternity with Him.
A given reality is referred to as “normative,” because it
“fits” for most people. Mass, devotions, the sacraments,
bring grace to the soul. For those with health of mind,
anything 'outside the box" of doctrine may be considered
outré, in terms of a doctrinally “acceptable way” of relating to God.
I’m here to say that, if one is looking for Jesus, they may
find Him, sometimes, outside the box - in an alleyway, with one
who is seeking food from a dumpster. My God! He missed Mass! Standing alongside a man, half-laying on a stone bench, outside a shopping mall, in the cold of late autumn. In a bar, at 3 in the morning, where sometimes people in great psychological pain
are self-medicating with alcohol.
I was visiting my father, who had paranoid schizophrenia,
on locked wards, at the age of 19. I have know many who are
severly ill, as well. Exactly 30 years later, I too spent time
on a psychiatrict unit, for 12 days. I saw more genuine
charity, in my fellow patients, than I have ever seen in one place.
Christ crucified was up and walking around in those dear souls.
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