I’ll be frank:
I was raised to love God and His one, holy, catholic, and apostolic Church. I’m a millennial so I didn’t receive the best catechesis growing up but both my parents had a simple, strong faith.
Often times, that
is the best catechesis.
…if you think catechesis is at an all-time low, you’ve obviously not seen anything from the 70’s[1]
When I got older I started watching EWTN and listening to Catholic Radio. I fell even deeper in love with the Church and decided I had a vocation to the priesthood and religious life.
They’re helpful, but they’re also not the Magisterium.[2]
But ever since I entered religious/priestly formation I have had to violate my conscience a number of times. I was told not to be so rigid when I pointed out liturgical abuses.
As difficult a lesson as it has been for me, it is true in general. Yes, abuses are objectively wrong; subjectively, they may be lessened in importance. The guiding principle for me in such situations is that I conduct myself as I would at any other Mass (i.e. to show the reverence I feel is necessary, regardless of the… improvisations), and that it is not a reportable issue unless the validity of the Mass is in question (effectively, that the Words of Institution are said correctly and that proper matter of bread and wine was used).
The further you go in the seminary, the more you realize that the liturgy is an ongoing process - even if, objectively, Vatican II speaks pretty heavily against adding, removing, changing, etc.
In novitiate the priests had a huge occupation with everything new-age.
Yeah, that’s a red-flag for me; and a discernment moment for you. Don Ruggero covered this pretty well, and I agree with his sentiments.
For the love of all that is holy:
Be (RESPECTFULLY) honest and straightforward with those charged in your formation process. Too many times have I seen exactly what Don Ruggero suggests - seminarians, novices, whoever telling Formation (and, rather soberingly, Spiritual Direction) what they think they want to hear, instead of what is actually the case. This hurts the Church more than many other things, including (I would argue) the liturgical abuses. How is one supposed to be formed/directed when the person being formed/directed is not even known?
We used the enneagram and talked about “panentheism.”
The enneagram, MBTI, and all other personality/psychological batteries can be very helpful, so long as they aren’t made into an idol of their own.
As to the panentheism… You’d have to explain that further. One could make that argument, depending on how one reads St. Thomas’s Summa(s); but that’s admittedly a big topic out of scope here.
At my seminary we are allowed to talk about the evils of capitalism and the death penalty, but not abortion, homosexuality, or relativism. Many times my classes feel like a systematic dismantling of anything the Catholic Church has timelessly taught.
I’ll admit I’m getting rather tired hearing about how women’s ordination is a possibility, how we “don’t believe in [the indelible mark of ordination] anymore”, and the virtues of various liberation theologies - including LGBT “so-called queer” theology. :compcoff:
At the same time, I’ve found it immensely helpful for when you’re out in a parish and somebody comes at you with how they think the Church has got it all wrong… At least you come prepared, having already pondered such subjedo notcts - and news flash: those people
do not want to hear an answer which involves the catechism (or even Church teaching).:manvspc::banghead::takethat:
Often times I don’t know why I’m still in religious/priestly formation. I think I would have left a long time ago if I weren’t so sure God was calling me to the priesthood.
Is this normal? Does anyone else think this is a weird experience to have when studying for the priesthood? Is it okay that I feel frustrated and demoralized from all of this?
I hope it’s okay for me to post all of this. I know I’m probably close to violating #19 of the “banned topics” list but I hope it’s okay since I’m not mentioning any seminary or religious order by name.
Again, I recommend Don Ruggero’s post.
[1] Yes, I’m (somewhat) joking…
[2] Nor do they claim to be. They are, however, excellent resources from very helpful people trying to do their best to explain the faith to others. My point here being that EWTN/Catholic Radio should be seen just as authoritative as America Magazine.