Just a quick background as this is my first post, I was raised LDS and have chosen to convert to Catholicism. This was the first thread I saw today, my first day back since I registered, and I had to laugh. How applicable to my situation! I know that the OP has already decided to revert to Catholicism, but I thought I’d share why this Mormon has chosen to become Catholic.
I was a history major at BYU. When I entered the history program we were guided to Boyd K. Packer’s talk “The Mantle is Far Greater than the Intellect” (link in case you’ve never read it:
si.lds.org/bc/seminary/content/library/talks/ces-symposium-addresses/the-mantle-is-far-far-greater-than-the-intellect_eng.pdf) and informed in no uncertain terms that in complying with this talk we should not submit research papers on any church history topics, especially not Joseph Smith. This of course made me more curious than ever and I had to know what they didn’t want me to know.
After being completely devastated by the things I found about church history and Joseph Smith especially, I still couldn’t leave. I was raised in a very devout Mormon family, the descendant of Mormon pioneers on both sides, and everything I had was tied up in my identity as a Mormon. I tried desperately to make it work. I figured if I just tried hard enough and prayed hard enough these doubts would be made clear. During this time, I would take some breaks from Mormonism and investigate other churches. I was consistently drawn to Catholicism but I resisted. I know now that I had many misunderstandings about the doctrines of the Catholic faith, and partially because of these misunderstandings I choose to not attend a Mass, even though there was a strong urge to go. I attended many other denominations and though the services were generally fine, nothing compelled me to return. It wasn’t what I was looking for.
About a year ago I stopped going to LDS Church completely. I also gave up on finding any church to join. I continued to believe in Christ but I was so hurt by my experience in Mormonism and frustrated at my lack of finding another faith. Of course, the draw to Catholicism increased, but, being my stubborn self, I didn’t attend Mass. Finally, about three weeks ago I realized that this urge to attend Mass wouldn’t subside until I did it. So I researched Catholic parishes in my area and found the one closest to me.
During the Mass I tried to follow along in the book, but I admit it was a bit overwhelming. It was just so different than listening to talks and lessons for three hours like LDS church. I sort of gave up during the Eucharist. I put down the book and just started watching the priest bless the Eucharist. Then the priest held up the host and stated “Behold the Lamb of God” and thank heavens I was kneeling because I might have fallen over otherwise. I knew that Christ was there in the consecrated host. I knew He was there just as surely as I knew the priest was there. After Mass was over I left quickly and went home. I thought, I prayed, I cried. And then I knew the Catholic Church was the truth I had been looking for. The next day I called to make an appointment with the priest and inquire about RCIA classes. I start in September and I haven’t been this happy or at peace in years.
That’s why this Mormon is becoming Catholic.