Do you love Christ enough to follow where He leads even if it is outside the Catholic Church even if it means to turn away from the faith of all your family and your support group to follow Him. Do you have the courage to do that?
I note that you did not directly answer. Here’s my answer: Yes! I have no command but to follow Christ everywhere He leads. Know that I have been outside. I have been elsewhere most of my life.
It is the Holy Spirit leads to unity, to home in Christ’s church. From the basis of your continuing posts, I do not believe your heart is open to the possibility of Christ being in the church that He founded for your sake. A poison has crept into your view of that church. For the sake of your soul, please consider where that poison came from. Please consider who is the sower of discord, the provider of poison. Think big picture. Good vs. evil. Something to ponder.
If you choose to live in the past, and condemn the faith because of the past behavior of its members, you should not be Christian. Scripture documents the faithlessness, the anger, the jealousy, the failures of the Apostles as they abandoned Christ. And, they touched Christ, were touched by Him and walked in His presence. Since they were so unbelieving, so attached to this world, why follow their path?
The spirit of discord, the spirit of separation leads away from unity. Please explain why you think you have the fulness of Christ in a faith tradition that broke off from the original church, taking most, but not all, with it? This is if you are high-church Lutheran. If not, then you are in a faith which is derived from several derivations of Lutheran tradition. Only one church has the fulness. The others broke off, taking most, but not all, with them. Continue this for 500 years and what you have is a love of the concept of Christ, but a disdain for Christ in the Flesh.
Do not let your heart be poisoned to the faith of our fathers, to the presence of Christ in the flesh, even to your brothers and sisters. Do you want only just enough of Christ to be saved? Who decides that? There is more to Christ. Seek it and you shall find it.
Christ’s peace be in your heart.