Reading your reply, I am frustrated too, but I will try again.
First of all, in this business there is no demanding.
God is Love.
To know God is to know about giving of oneself.
One gives of what has been given to oneself, to those who are other.
It is about surrender - surrendering of oneself to God.
If you want to know the Truth, you will surrender your mind to the Truth.
One can’t keep going on trying to piece together what is nonsense and expect the Truth.
You do not know God, ergo your premises are wrong.
I would say that God is calling you and you are frustrated because your understanding of the world prevents you from knowing Him.
He is telling you, you are all caught up in your own self - hence all you get are bizarre solipsistic ideas.
Seriously, what are you thinking? Do you work? go to the store? speak to people? What do you think is going on here right now?
Again, it is all about love.
Read the Bible. Pray. Do good works. Attend Masss. Participate in the sacraments.
Do you spend time praying and in contemplation of the Blessed Sacrament? Try it; it works.
Coming to know God isn’t like mathematics, solving some problem, memorizing the facts or proofs.
It comes about hrough participation in His Church; this is how you will know Him.
Pray - speak to Him.
That’s the easy way.
Don’t worry. If He continues to call and you are interested in finding God, ultimately, your frustration will mount and burn out all that is not love, beauty and truth.
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