Hello,
My name is Paul I am 22 years old and I belong to a knightly order in England. I have never thought about hell before until last night when I had a very terrifying dream. I saw the fires of hell and a demon in the foreground, something I am still afraid of . It has told me there are other eternal torments in hell, not just the lake of fire. The demon told me the following as to what awaits me in hell
''You will be brought here on your white horse in your shining armour and we will change you, change you into a pretty girlie who is very white wearing a short blue dress with no underwear with long blonde hair, you will serve each one of us for all eternity as that girlie , your horse shall be castrated, your manhood will be attached to it’s tail. "
I know it has been just a dream on the one hand but it is so vivid, even now, that I remember every detail. I never experienced anything like this before.
I just want to know if this can really be my fate in hell as punishment for my pride ? Is it really possible I would have to endure it forever ?
Thank you in advance for your response,
Paul.
Be careful about what you allow yourself to be terrified of, and who you listen to.
Really now…would Hell be worth consideration if it were “only” a lake of fire? Honestly…would it be worth consideration if were “only” sitting around in a clean dry room, eating tea and crumpets every day, and yet separated from the love of God, surrounded only by those who know nothing of patience, kindness, piety, or anything having to do with God, who are all proud, boastful, backstabbing, blasphemous, and hateful, where there is neither silence nor music nor ever praise of God? Do you appreciate what you are, when separated from grace? Could you endure that kind of poverty? I think the image of fire is presented so often because we are so numbed to what the worst part of hell would be. Let us face it: without the grace of God, just living with our selves would be a consequence far greater than the physical sufferings that go with it.
Ask yourself, too, the question that a true demon would not have you look at. Why is being a powerless and humiliated little girl, a violated thing of beauty, the worst thing you can think of being? Why would this be the worst torment for you, worse than a lake of fire? Could what you fear be one of the things that betrays what separates you from graces that you lack? You must know that there are little girls in this world, white slaves who have done nothing worse than any of us, nothing to merit the lives they must lead, who suffer exactly the fate you fear so much.
They are in your hell right now. Does your life of knightly chivalry extend to their plight? Is there anything you can do about that? Would work in that direction, on their behalf, not give you courage against what you fear? It is something to consider. What the devil would use to paralyze you, God can use to call you to arms! Noblesse oblige, my friend…and love covers a multitude of sins.
The Lord says in the Scriptures hundreds of times: Fear not. Do not spend your life obsessing about yourself, even about what punishment your sins merit. I do not mean that hell is not real or that we should fall into presumption. I mean that guilt and fear have exactly one purpose: to turn your eyes away from the nonsense and lies, from the glamourous and dazzling lies of the Evil One, and towards God. Once you have turned your eyes toward God and repented of your sin, think only about God!
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I say it again: Rejoice! Everyone should see how unselfish you are. The Lord is near.
Dismiss all anxiety from your minds. Present your needs to God in every form of prayer and in petitions full of gratitude. Then God’s own peace, which is beyond understanding, will stand guard over your hearts and minds, in Christ Jesus. Finally my brothers, your thoughts should be wholly directed to all that is true, all that deserves respect, all that is honest, pure, admirable, decent, virtuous, or worthy of praise.
Live according to what you have learned and accepted, what you have heard me say and seen me do. Then will the God of peace be with you.” Phil. 4:4-9