What I want to know is why people who reject certain teachings from the Church still want to remain Catholic. Like usually, if that were the case with a protestant, they might change denomination.
Ok well you asked, and so I’ll answer. It’s really no secret that I have a few stumbling blocks with regards to some teachings of the Church, which I really don’t wish to discuss here. I’ll answer why I choose to remain Catholic though.
I was baptised as an infant and raised in a Catholic home. I went to Catholic schools all my life including grammar, high school, college and even university. My family was always the ‘traditional’ family where I grew up. My grandmother was very very religious, always praying and attending daily Mass, and had a prayer room. My mom used to work with the general public and with a lot of kids, and found many opportunities to evangelize and to regularly ‘counsel?’ them by introducing them to St. Jude, St. Michael, Mary, etc. She used to pass out those Pieta (blue) prayer books, give away St. Jude oil, give away Lourdes water, etc. She was well known in the area for being very spiritual and religious and people used to ask her to pray for them. Our very good friends ran the Marian Center, which was about Our Lady of Medjugorje. I realize many people think this was a hoax, but know that many very spiritual and religious people believed in it. There was an Opus Dei house not too far from the house (I didn’t like them, found them to be cultist, but that was my experience with them, everyone’s is different I suppose). My father was the black sheep of the family, and he’s no longer with us. My brother attended a high school seminary preparatory and somehow during his last year there became very angry with God and lost his faith in the Church over whatever happened there. To this day, he wants nothing to do with the Church and we can’t even
talk about the Church in his presence without him getting sooooo angry and agitated.
So mom, grandma and I were quite spiritual through rough times and good times. So, it wasn’t until I happened upon CAF that I was ever considered liberal or even not a good Catholic. So really, why would I want to leave the Church just because I encountered an online community who demands me to think the way the conservative ones do? Since coming to CAF, I’ve realized I’m a lot more spiritual than ‘religous’ because the Catholicism here on CAF is very foreign to me. I’ve learned a lot from CAF and they’re a wonderful resource, but it’s not going to change me or my life decisions…and it’s not going to make me leave a Church that I grew up in
I still remain Catholic, frankly, because because that’s what I am, and that’s what the Church says I am (there’s that indelible mark of Baptism that the Church claims makes me Catholic forever), and there isn’t a better option. Any option is missing something. There isn’t another religion that has all that the Catholic Church has, but without all the rules rules and more rules. Since coming here, I realize that I actually lean towards Eastern Orthodoxy in a big way. IMMHO I find them less legalistic and more about loving God. But my family is Roman Catholic and that’s how I was raised. Frankly I find the differences between Eastern and Roman so insignificant that to me it doesn’t matter to leave one for the other. They both have apolostic succession. So that’s why I haven’t made that move. I’m content to stay where I am.
And really, I don’t
have to leave, and there are no consquences for not being conservative and/or radical. It’s not like the civil laws mimic the laws of the Church, and there is no consequence for being a free thinker. In addition, I only get fussed at here, not in real life. Back in the times when Protestants were trying to separate from the Church, the laws of the secular government were based on the laws of the Church, and the secular authorities would severely punish people suspected of not following the rules of the Church. We don’t have that now. So there is no reason in the world for me to either go against my conscience and be who I am not, or leave. And again, the Church itself claims I’m Catholic even if I do leave, so why bother.