T
TheBigQ
Guest
I do agree w/you all that porn is basically a bad thing. I don’t, I didn’t mean to come across as though I was glibly defending it yesterday, although that’s maybe how I did come across. I apologize. Furthermore, I should note that there will be things in this post which may well offend or even nauseate, so please, stop reading ahead of time if that’s the case.
That having been said, I have seen some examples of what another poster here said. It’s very true, as he/she said, that the porn addiction, like a drug addiction, * escalates*. It always escalates. While for most men it will not end up down in the most debased and even criminal stages , like child porn, etc, it oftentimes requires a stronger and stronger “jolt”, so to speak, to get the same “buzz” that , at age 15 for example , when it was all “new” to me, a Playboy magazine or lingerie catalog could offer. I have indeed heard of some “types” of porn, which exist mostly on the “dark underbelly” of the Internet, which sound literally vomitous. Even to a jaded hairy-palmed hellbound mortal sinner like me. It’s beyond obscene. Coprophilia / coprophagia. Urolagnia. Simulated necrophilia. “Extreme” “S and M”. All of course in variations of either “gay” or “straight”.
And I have seen, over the 15 or so years during which I have used pornography that is generally considered to be “mainstream” and can be purchased at any adult bookstore for example, the “tenor” of the porn getting more and more debased, and much more cruel , even brutal, in its treatment of the females involved. They are literally turned into pieces of meat, in much of this “style” of porn (and again, this is today considered just “mainstream” hardcore stuff, not anything that is way “out there” or “fetishist” ). They are spat upon, written upon, brutally … gang-raped … for lack of other better or truer words, viciously cursed at and reviled during the acts, their heads are even sometimes “flushed” down toilets at the end. It’s no longer sex on film, in so many cases nowadays; it’s more like a legal consensual *sexual assault-and-battery * on film. And the girl , probably already a survivor of past abuse, as someone else here rightly noted, probably doing it to support a drug habit in many cases, walks, wobbly-legged off of the set, with maybe a thousand dollars or so, at most, having made a mistake she will never forget, which will further traumatize her mind, and which has been recorded and is now being sold in adult video stores around the country, and on the world wide Internet.
There are things that you see that sort of “tattoo” themselves onto your memory. I have had bad experiences, especially lately, with this type of porn. This type of porn upsets me and is what makes me want to quit, quite frankly. I remember once, not long ago, sitting in the dim light of a “movie viewing booth” at an adult bookstore, and actually crying to myself, following something I had just seen on the screen. The “director”, a vile cruel-mouthed little sadist , after the girl has just been horribly thoroughly degraded (and she’s all of 19, 20 ; she should be away at college) , he says to her, “What if your parents could see you now, dummy ?? You sure make them proud.” And she says nothing. And he presses her further before turning the camera off, he says, " Do you think you made a mistake??" And she is about to cry, you can tell, but she doesn’t say anything. He probes still further, saying, "I want you to think about the worst day of your life. " She sits there, looking teary-eyed, as I said. "What was it? " he asks her. Her simple response, as she actually began to cry on film, was what finally cut to the core of me, and made me think My God what have I become looking at this, I’ve got to get away from this stuff. “Today,” she said. That was it. The director laughed and as she got up to leave he said, “Wait, don’t you want to stop and give all these guys hugs and stuff??” And they all, all the guys, just stood there and laughed, shaking their heads at her. It was truly foul. Vile.
So I think, after having shared, or probably rather “overshared” that invaluable “nugget” of very personal experience with you all, I will seriously consider going to that meeting this Wednesday night. The first one is always the hardest one to get to, they say.
Peace. TBQ
That having been said, I have seen some examples of what another poster here said. It’s very true, as he/she said, that the porn addiction, like a drug addiction, * escalates*. It always escalates. While for most men it will not end up down in the most debased and even criminal stages , like child porn, etc, it oftentimes requires a stronger and stronger “jolt”, so to speak, to get the same “buzz” that , at age 15 for example , when it was all “new” to me, a Playboy magazine or lingerie catalog could offer. I have indeed heard of some “types” of porn, which exist mostly on the “dark underbelly” of the Internet, which sound literally vomitous. Even to a jaded hairy-palmed hellbound mortal sinner like me. It’s beyond obscene. Coprophilia / coprophagia. Urolagnia. Simulated necrophilia. “Extreme” “S and M”. All of course in variations of either “gay” or “straight”.
And I have seen, over the 15 or so years during which I have used pornography that is generally considered to be “mainstream” and can be purchased at any adult bookstore for example, the “tenor” of the porn getting more and more debased, and much more cruel , even brutal, in its treatment of the females involved. They are literally turned into pieces of meat, in much of this “style” of porn (and again, this is today considered just “mainstream” hardcore stuff, not anything that is way “out there” or “fetishist” ). They are spat upon, written upon, brutally … gang-raped … for lack of other better or truer words, viciously cursed at and reviled during the acts, their heads are even sometimes “flushed” down toilets at the end. It’s no longer sex on film, in so many cases nowadays; it’s more like a legal consensual *sexual assault-and-battery * on film. And the girl , probably already a survivor of past abuse, as someone else here rightly noted, probably doing it to support a drug habit in many cases, walks, wobbly-legged off of the set, with maybe a thousand dollars or so, at most, having made a mistake she will never forget, which will further traumatize her mind, and which has been recorded and is now being sold in adult video stores around the country, and on the world wide Internet.
There are things that you see that sort of “tattoo” themselves onto your memory. I have had bad experiences, especially lately, with this type of porn. This type of porn upsets me and is what makes me want to quit, quite frankly. I remember once, not long ago, sitting in the dim light of a “movie viewing booth” at an adult bookstore, and actually crying to myself, following something I had just seen on the screen. The “director”, a vile cruel-mouthed little sadist , after the girl has just been horribly thoroughly degraded (and she’s all of 19, 20 ; she should be away at college) , he says to her, “What if your parents could see you now, dummy ?? You sure make them proud.” And she says nothing. And he presses her further before turning the camera off, he says, " Do you think you made a mistake??" And she is about to cry, you can tell, but she doesn’t say anything. He probes still further, saying, "I want you to think about the worst day of your life. " She sits there, looking teary-eyed, as I said. "What was it? " he asks her. Her simple response, as she actually began to cry on film, was what finally cut to the core of me, and made me think My God what have I become looking at this, I’ve got to get away from this stuff. “Today,” she said. That was it. The director laughed and as she got up to leave he said, “Wait, don’t you want to stop and give all these guys hugs and stuff??” And they all, all the guys, just stood there and laughed, shaking their heads at her. It was truly foul. Vile.
So I think, after having shared, or probably rather “overshared” that invaluable “nugget” of very personal experience with you all, I will seriously consider going to that meeting this Wednesday night. The first one is always the hardest one to get to, they say.
Peace. TBQ
