but I see the influence of ego in the entire tongue only-kneeling only movement, i.e. I’m a better Catholic if I receive to their standards.
I’m sorry that’s been your experience.
But as I attend the EF Mass 99% of the time, your reference also includes me, and I most definitely do not consider those who are unable to kneel a lessor Catholic than myself.
I too have difficulty in kneeling due to my knees and I also have an autoimmune disorder and a chronic illness that affects my muscles, tendons and ligaments - so there has been an occasion where I have had to stand due to the pain, and no-one at my parish thinks anything different as there are some others who cannot kneel either.
And yes, people do assess ones ability on whether to kneel or not on what is visible, unfortunate, but human. Being in a wheelchair is obvious so no-one thinks anything of it. The same goes for someone wearing calipers or on crutches. I too in lots of areas of my life have met with non-acceptance of my issues because to others I look normal and healthy. So I say to others when this is apparent and is what is occuring, can you see someone who has internal cancer or early stage breast cancer and not showing signs of treatment e.g. hair loss etc. - is there cancer any less real just because it is internal and not something you can see?
Doesn’t that make them a sort of second class citizen in the eyes of all who watch?
Of course not. But I wonder if perhaps if it
may be coming from within ourselves when we assume others have that attitude towards ourselves in all places and occasions, that we assume others consider us to be second class citizens - perhaps some do, but I’d say a lot wouldn’t.
When I attend the OF Mass (within my parish only one has Altar rails), so I am standing to receive, but I receive on the tongue - so I bend my knees a little to make it easier for Father to place the host on my tongue. And yes, the floor is all one level. I find I can rise from this slight bending of the knees without too much problem.