Throughout my life, I have been a faithful and devout Catholic. However, for the past few months, I have been questioning my beliefs. I am more leaning towards Agnosticism now. By nature, I like the scientific process, and have found many theories that explain the universe in a way that does not require religion. I feel like I am losing my belief in a higher power. Not necessarily going against it, but rather remaining neutral on the existence of God(s).
At times, I feel like my religious beliefs may inhibit certain scientific theories and social progress (although this by no means affects my beliefs in general).
So why am I here? I’ve heard a lot of irreligious commentary on the subject. But before I make up my mind, I want some members of the Catholic community to offer me some insight. Are there any thoughts? Thank you.
Christianity has brought us science through its transcendental conception of God and the idea that all the things in nature work according to God’s natural (scientific laws), though God is not something in nature, but beyond; so in this way science is way to understand the physical/empirical world without consideration of God. To focus on a scientific study we can subtract God from the equation, and that’s because of our conception of God as being the author of creation but not in creation itself. I think atheistic science as a method I think is fine; I think God may be more pleased with us attributing natural phenomena to natural causes than to some anthropomorphic deity made in the image of our limited understanding.
What I mean is that many religions explain the universe and its workings as due to various gods, goddesses, and spiritual forces. If it thunders, perhaps Zeus is angry. Or it is the tree spirit that makes it grow and its leaves sway in the wind, or the brook babble.
In the Judeo-Christian concept, God is “totally other,” beyond and transcendent of nature, and yet immanent, very near, with us, according to what we read in the Bible – the experiences of prophets, saints and the advent, life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. John of the Cross said that the only sense we need for belief in God is hearing – to hear what is written in the Bible.
You can get to science thru Christianity and our Christian concept of God – and there is nothing in science that goes against Christianity, since it is all based on God’s natural laws & whatever we discover scientifically is God’s natural laws and can help lead us to a greater understanding and appreciation of God. However, you cannot get to God thru science, since God is both the “seen” and the “unseen”; God is infinitely greater and more encompassing than science.
One of my insights has been to understand God a wee bit better thru parallels: the universe from the tiniest of starts in the Big Bang; all of life on earth thru some microscopic DNA strands replicating and thru evolution over millions of years to the grand panoply of species, big whales, very intelligent beings (us); from a tiny babe in a poor manger to the King of Kings, the King of our hearts. Who could have imagined on their own – we had to learn this and have even had difficulty in accepting it. I think it is a great time to be living, knowing science and understanding God in ways we could not have known before, when we thought the earth was flat and the sun revolved around it. For me science only strengthens my belief in and appreciation of God.
I think religious people go thru phases and cycles in which they have lesser and greater faith and belief; and there is greater merit in clinging to faith when one is beset by doubt – the dark night of the soul. Prayer is a great way to get help, and help beyond imagining.
I have found the following YouTube video helpful, which starts out “There are two ways to live your life: One is though nothing is a miracle. The other is though everything is a miracle.” Everything is a miracle – some miracles have scientific explanations, and some do not…yet
youtube.com/watch?v=CZZFO9F8FWU
Another film that might help (tho there a few tiny issues with it) is The Perfect Stranger – see
youtube.com/watch?v=XPPwQApwBsA