Belief in in Papal Infallibility or transubstantiation is about faith. They may be tenents of a religion but they are still faith claims. Faith, n. 2: strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. The line between magic and religion is also not as neat as we’d like to believe (see writings of Bronisław Malinowski for more on this issue).
I’m going to end up reading Malinowski or at the very least researching him and his works so I can understand where you are coming from. But since we homeschool and tomorrow is Friday which means school, girl scouts and now the science fair I’m going to have to ask which type of magic are you referring to? Magic such as Earth magic that some pagans practice or magic like Merlin?
I can see where your Malinowski could equate the so-called Earth magic with religion. More than one person has tried to equate their paganness with Christianity.
Agnosticism is the supposition that ‘the existence (or non-existance) of supernatural entities (i.e. gods) cannot be proven.’ There is nothing contradictory in being an agnostic theist (one who believes in a deity while believing it is impossible to prove its existence) or a gnostic atheist (one who believes the are no deities and that such a fact can be proven).
Got that.
I have, and as in all the other prayers I’ve ever offered nothing came of it–just as the prayers of healing from every amputee have gone unanswered. I see the opposite, in the ‘war of nature… famine and death’ (Darwin) I see the terrible and painful state of the world and wonder how an all-loving god allow such a system to come about and that’s all prior to humans stepping onto the scene.
Have you stopped to think that maybe you answer has been to search more? My take on your situation: God knows you. He knows that you are searching more with the intellect than with the heart. And to feed that intellect you’ve been lead to this book and that writing and the other philosopher. You seem, to me, to be the type that has to know, but once you know with an absolute conviction you will never be swayed.
I’ll be surprised if you tell me that you have asked from the heart for nothing more than faith.
As for prayers of healing, famine and death. How many people have turned to God in the face of illness, destitution or on their death bed? As I said earlier, my faith deepened when my daughter was born. With all the things that could have gone wrong, and trust me I wasn’t much into being healthy back then, everything went right. I had a miracle and I was blessed. Then 4 years ago I developed a rare eye disease. I go around in public indoors and out like this guy

. Under the shades I look like this one.
I pray every day and have for 4 years that God heals me. In his time I know He will. And if He doesn’t well, there is a reason for it. I’ll never know, but maybe the reason for it is so I can be at this place at this time and talking to you.
God’s reasons are not our own and we can not always understand that with our intellect. Especially when we see bad things happen that a loving and all powerful God could prevent.
Honest question, and this is where I have the issue. If we don’t need God to create the earth and all its myriad lifeforms then metaphysically I don’t see the necessity. If we need a god (NB not God in the Christian sense) to originally create the universe (unmoved mover argument from Aristotle and Aquinas) then the question then has to be ‘what created this god?’ and if the answer is ‘it has always existed’ then why do we need–in the ontological sense–to create this god when we could just say ‘the universe has always existed’?
Who said we did not need God to create the Earth, and all life? If the Big Bang happened with out God’s will than what was the point of the Big Bang? If life on Earth has evolved without God’s will than why are we here?
You are missing something in your little circle. What created God = God has always existed = the universe has always existed = God is the universe. The universe is not God. So the universe has not always existed.
It is getting late. My brain is shutting down. We could keep this going for days, but I’ll be busy most of the weekend. I’ll try to keep up with the thread.
Back to your original question and my original answer. Don’t do anything rash. Being debaptized is not necessary to leave the church. But if the door is locked when you find your answers it may be hard to find the key. I was where you are now - maybe not with the $10 words though. LOL
Keep searching and asking questions. I have faith that one day God will provide the answer you need. If you don’t mind I’ll pray for you to receive wisdom.