paramedicgirl:
Having a conversation with one atheist is enough for me, thanks! You said you were formerly an orthodox Catholic. May I ask how you became an atheist? What caused you to challenge God’s existence?
*"Only the fool says in his heart: “There is no God” (Ps.13:1) *
Did you just call me a fool? Why, I oughta…
When talking with an atheist, *never *quote that verse. It does no good in helping you win him over to your cause. Most atheists
love it when that verse is quoted to them and simply laugh at it, and the humorous ones will even quote back to you the verse which says that those who call another a fool will be in danger of hellfire. Others, however, will be upset and think that you’re insulting them. I don’t think it’s a wise thing to do. It doesn’t help progress.
How did I become an atheist? Where do I begin?
For all my life, I have had an extreme anxiety condition and obsessive-compulsive disorder. When I reverted to Catholicism and became serious about the faith, the teaching of eternal punishment became a
reality to me. It wasn’t some misty or airy dungeon of spiritual torture somewhere in the back of the cosmos: It was in the same room as I was in. It was as real as this keyboard I am typing on right now. As my father was dying of cancer, I had many doubts about whether he would end up in this fiery pit. He did great things and influenced so many people, but he was not religious, and he told me that he had indeed committed Mortal Sins and hadn’t been to confession in about 30 years. Naturally, I feared for his soul. With this anxiety, I began having the classic doubts about the doctrine of eternal punishment that almost every person goes through. During this time when my father was slowly and painfully dying from cancer, I was hospitalized for my abnormal behavior caused by the OCD and religious teachings on the hospital’s mental ward floor for about 5 days. On the day I was released, my father was in and out of consciousness and, shortly afterward, eventually died. I missed so much crucial time with him because of my OCD and religion, and saying that I’m a little pissed off is a gross understatement. I felt like I was abandonded by the heavenly court in my time of need.
After his death, I was thinking about hell constantly and whether he was actually there, which is a terrifying thought for a son who loves his father and thinks the world of him. Yes, if he’s there, it was his decision, his free will, and it is a just punishment, and when – if – you get to heaven, you will have a full view of the burning multitudes, and you will not have any pity or sadness towards them but joy knowing that God’s glory and justice were being glorified (I know the last bit isn’t official, but it’s what I thought at the time after reading Aquinas.)
In my attempt to get some answers to my doubts about hell, I stumbled upon the Secular Web’s web site. I read Robert Green Ingersoll, Richard Carrier, Robert M. Price, Biblical Errancy and Biblical Criticsm. I read their message board frequently and followed the formal debates and posters whom I knew were extremely intelligent and erudite. I read atheistic books, but I also read Christian apologetics, but in my mind, in the end, I decided that the skeptics were in the right.
What convinced me in the end at this point? That’s really hard to pin down, but I’ll try to recall and give it some more thought. I know that Biblical Criticism played a huge role and the writings of Ingersoll also. But there were so many things going on in my head, so many objections, so much apologetics, that I can’t recall what finally pushed me over the edge.
Enough about me. Why are you Catholic?
best,
clarkal