part II…
My journey began with faith. I was “born Catholic” and was baptized, but was not raised Catholic (or anything else). Jesus was always somewhere in my heart - I somehow knew He was there, but I didn’t know Him at all. I think now that this was the grace I received at baptism, which kept me open to the possibility of answering the call to faith. A few years ago (in my late 30s), I fell in love with Jesus and he saved me from a great fall. I then had to choose how to best worship Him, and of course most of the available choices were the myriad “Bible churches” which abound in the South. Although I was temporarily tempted by these people, it did not take very much research to come to the conclusion that the Catholic Church was indeed the Church Jesus Himself had founded. The design, like the design of the universe itself, was perfect and had passed the test of time against the most insurmountable odds - how could this be manmade?? Once I accepted that this was Jesus’ true Church, I immediately accepted all of its teaching as my beliefs - whether or not I knew where they came from, whether or not I could quote scripture to support them, whether or not I thought I would have come up with them myself given the available evidence, and whether or not I understood them the first time I heard them. Since the Church came by its teachings so honestly - by learning from Jesus Himself or from his apostles, who knew His teachings first-hand and were inspired by the Holy Spirit to remember and pass on His teachings - I do not feel the smallest qualm in accepting a teaching that I might not fully understand, because it comes from someone who is more theologically astute than I am.
This attitude is yet to fail me - with enough study and prayer I have been able to find enough evidence to satisfy my curiosity on every single Catholic teaching I’ve looked into, and I have not found a single piece of convincing evidence that I should doubt a word of what the Church teaches. I’ve been blessed to be able to teach RCIA for the past three years, and I’ve heard a lot of disparate beliefs, but I always try to remember that we are always teaching from the high ground. Our beliefs don’t need to be defended, because they can’t be disproved. I’ve given up trying to reinvent the wheel - I don’t bother digging too deeply anymore in historical evidence. Simple faith and a little study help me to understand any teaching, and if someone comes up with a definite refutation of a Catholic teaching, it’ll be such big news that we’ll all hear about it. Until that time, I’ll just contentedly and blessedly do the sheep thing. Baaaaa!