Contarini,
I appreciate the stand you are taking for your beliefs. I know it well, I was a very zealous and sincere Catholic, devoted to the Church, Pope, the Saints. That is all well and good, and works exceptionally well within its own “culture.” For me that culture started to break apart when the questions I started asking from the basis of my own rather thorough knowledge of the faith. Then one day I saw something in film club, a group of us who were interested in going beyond even the rich academic offerings of our Catholic school, We were a group with some initiative, I guess, All of us went on to do very well in our fields.
What we saw, and what deeply moved me, was a documentary about the Ituri Pygmies in the Congo. The description of their social interactions led me to conclude that they might be the sanest group of people I’d ever encountered. But what almost knocked me off my seat, there in that Catholic sanctuary, was that these people worshiped a God who was born of a virgin, was wise at a young age, had a public life which included many miracles, and he was crucified, died, and rose again from the dead.
These people, to the best ability of the scholars encountering them to determine, had never had contact with christianists of any description. It was not Jesus whom they worshiped. they were surprised that people they didn’t know knew the story of their God but had for him a different name. That made me exceedingly curious. It took me along time to find out what was going on. It was a marvelous and wondrous journey away from belief.
What really made me turn course was that I had a remarkable transformational experience of my own. It completely altered/altared my life. Of course, everyone thought I had gone mad, and even recommended I see a shrink. Subsequent events showed that not only was I fine, I had increased capacity. but it took me years to adjust.
Part of why it took me so long was that, true to form, the resources I had available to me through and as the Church did not directly address my dilemma, nor the perfectly sane and logical questions surrounding it. In utter frustration I looked elsewhere. Eureka! Though I tried some different Eastern ways, none fully addressed my question either, though one came close. Then, while explaining, or trying to, my cosmological understanding to someone in a counseling session, the person said “You have to meet a man I know.”
I met that man after hearing him give an astounding spontaneous lecture on the nature of God, Love, and Man. I could not believe my ears. He was, to my best perception, cohesively speaking at three levels of meaning at least. This is consistent with the Teaching language used at the time and region of Jesus. On meeting this man in person, he asked me to sit as one of a group of others around him. I listened as he spontaneously spoke a poem that answered many question I had had since my transformational experience. He did not know me then, nor had anyone told him about me save that I was interested in meeting him after the lecture.
Now thirty odd some years after meeting him, I can say that he was someone who spoke his walk. He went about doing good. He was consulted by Jesuit scholars who were at an impasse, and by Mother Theresa, who’s assistant didn’t want to leave. He had the ability to elevate the understanding of anyone of any religion who came to him with sincere questions. Teachers of many descriptions form the East came to him as well, many not understanding how it was possible for him to Teach what they understood as “Living Vedanta” in English, a language known for its dualisms. One Buddhist nu told him that what he was giving had not been given in her tradition by a living teacher in two thousand years. It became very clear to me that wherever from he was speaking, it was a a place before the adementization of religions had taken hold of Truth and dogmatized it into a system. And, in my opinion, I saw what would constitute “miracles.”
One of the chief things I learned, Contarini, was that what I had understood as Catholicism is a veil over the actual Teaching attributed to Jesus. And the unveiled teaching is not for everyone, by any means. The whole New Age thing is a travesty of what in fact is a living and ancient Way of Understanding. In fact, it is over 5000 years old. In fact, if I asked you who I was talking about when I went through the points of significance starting with the Annunciation and ending in the Resurrections, You would answer Jesus. And you would be right. But you would also be right if you named a surprisingly large number of other crucified saviours as well.
And it will not be sufficient to say that these were only similar stories, or foreshadowings. That would be like a fundamentalist saying that dinosaur bones were put there by God to test our faith. No. What is going on is that there has always been and always will be an exoteric version, such as Catholicism, and an esoteric version, as the Way of Transformation that is ancient and honored by the Saints and Sages of the Ages. It puts “… Jesus saith unto him, I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life” however sincerely quoted, into an entirely different perspective and dynamic than is commonly understood.
Ant that is why I recommend, despite your obvious sincerity and piety, that you read a more non-pious explanation of how things got how they are. It is because, generally speaking, we have been lied to on several fronts, the above being only one portion of the rather unsavory stew we are now eating. And as long as we don’t all get on the same page, it will get worse. If you lived next door, I would invite you over to look at some interesting documents and photographs. This is not a game. But it is to people who need you to believe certain things.
I am not talking here about a conspiracy, but more like a business plan. And I am meeting more and more individuals who are saying, “OK, lets talk.” It is not to destroy faith, but t elevate one’s understanding of God to a more inclusive state of awareness. As we have seen, faith will only go so far. After more than 1700 years, the Catholic Church is only 1/6th of the world population. And we now know of more than 300 exoplanets, so we may yet find someone out there. How will the Church proselytize them?
I’m only asking for some critical thinking in this matter beyond our emotional investment in something we feel we have a stake in. That is drama; having a stake in something. It is, in fact, far more stable, secure, and Real than the picture we are asked to put faith in.
Personally, I care not a whit if you believe any of this or not, or think I’m bonkers or not. I went and found out for myself. I own my knowledge and am responsible for my reckoning. And what I see is not different from what has been said for these five millennia or more by the Saints and Sages, including Jesus. I have not been deceived.