Marijuana is a controversial issue, though as I previously suggested it is not the drug it has been envisioned as being by conservatives for decades. I quit due to employment concerns and despite the fact that I cannot do it and if I could I wouldn’t allow it to control my life, who am I do deny others the right to do it? Alcohol ruined my life, not marijuana, which may have only impeded my success. Yes, marijuana can slow you down, but doing it will not make you homeless, cause you to lose your family, alter your work performance (I have friends with great jobs to verify this), turn you into a “junkie” if you do it exclusively, etc. No, I absolutely would NOT encourage anyone, especially minors, to “get high”, though if people like to do it and they enjoy it I understand completely and restricting the use of marijuana, which we both know is far less destructive than alcohol is ridiculous. I am not constantly thinking about smoking marijuana, after two years I am well beyond any physical or mental attractions, which would lead me to go back and risk losing my job. Like smoking (which I gave up for Lent and never intend to do again, EVER), if I didn’t have asthma I would probably delay my quitting, but I knew it had to be done and despite the fact that I personally detest it now, I understand why other’s enjoy it and I certainly wouldn’t attempt for the illegality of it.
I do understand about saying “I owe it to myself” very well, this struck me like a bolt of lightning when I read that. I have “celebrated” for far less important occasions than a job promotion, try passing a test, getting a good review at work (which can be very common, because my boss believes in providing feedback when necessary), completing a term paper, and on and on. An addict, alcoholic or whatever will find any excuse to “celebrate”, even for the most mundane reasons, just as I did! If I had a rough week, out comes the bottles of brandy and vodka and Quo Vadis (1953 or the more recent Polish version from 2001) goes into the DVD player.
You said you you worked at Daytop, is that the one in Manhattan? Are there others? It is near the Church of St. Francis of Assisi on 31st street where I am thinking of offering my services as a Secular Franciscan, did you ever attend services there? Thomas Merton, Dorothy Day and many other famous Catholics have. I would really love to make that church a huge part of my life, the famous breadlines for the homeless, which they have been doing since the Great Depression, as well as their theologically liberal (I am not politically liberal) approach draws me to them. I have a huge hunger to GIVE, rather than TAKE, as I have done for so long and if I could GIVE I would love to do it there. Peace be with you, brother.