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Madaglan
Guest
I’ve been going to Ruthenian churches for the past two years. Only at certain times will I attend a Novus Ordo Mass, although I attended NO since childhood. I’ve been to several TLM’s, but not nearly as many Divine Liturgies. I can’t remember all the reasons I decided to attend a Ruthenian church. Already, even before going to Divine Liturgy for the first time, I was sparked with a great interest for Eastern Christianity, and had already read several Eastern Orthodox books. Before attending my first DL, I had only attended one TLM, and that was a Low Mass. I was not very much impressed by Low Mass, since I couldn’t hear anything the priest was saying.
Right now I don’t know where I belong. I don’t want to get into the trap of placing personal preference over doctrine. I like the Byzantine Divine Liturgy very much, especially when there’s a great cantor and much chanting. I pray the Jesus Prayer. I once prayed the Rosary, but no longer, not because I think it’s wrong, but because I couldn’t decide what to meditate on (the mysteries, the spirual fruits, the words I was praying, or my rosary intention?). But some aspects of Byzantine spirituality I’m not so sure about. Well, maybe I’m just more lax about than other people who like to be fully Eastern. I enjoy welcoming the icons, saying hello to Christ, the Theotokos, and all the saints surrounding me, and just being glad to be in their presence, along with all the other peope in the church. Maybe I’m being a bit too informal, but before Divine Liturgy I like pointing out to my friends around me my fascination at certain depictions on the icons (either on the walls or in the bulletins).
I’ve been to TLM’s as well, including High Masses. Overall, I think they are very well done. I admire the solemn reverence, the music and the liturgy itself. But, I don’t know: it’s the weirdest thing. In many ways I “feel” more at home with the TLM than the DL, since the NO still is of Latin tendencies, and that’s what I went to all my childhood. I guess there was one time when I felt normal in a NO setting, but there came a point (I think it was only after attending Divine Liturgy) that no longer could I attend NO and feel as though I belonged.
One thing I really like about the Eastern Divine Liturgy is that I don’t feel nearly as self-concious as I do when I’m at a Latin liturgy, be it NO or TLM. When at a Latin liturgy, I feel like there are many unspoken rules that you have to abide by once you enter the church. I’ve always felt spiritually constrained somewhat–as though things were too solemn and grave around me.
Grrr…you know, if it weren’t a matter of doctrine (which I consider very important and am not willing to compromise on) I’d probably join a traditional LCMS community.
Right now I don’t know where I belong. I don’t want to get into the trap of placing personal preference over doctrine. I like the Byzantine Divine Liturgy very much, especially when there’s a great cantor and much chanting. I pray the Jesus Prayer. I once prayed the Rosary, but no longer, not because I think it’s wrong, but because I couldn’t decide what to meditate on (the mysteries, the spirual fruits, the words I was praying, or my rosary intention?). But some aspects of Byzantine spirituality I’m not so sure about. Well, maybe I’m just more lax about than other people who like to be fully Eastern. I enjoy welcoming the icons, saying hello to Christ, the Theotokos, and all the saints surrounding me, and just being glad to be in their presence, along with all the other peope in the church. Maybe I’m being a bit too informal, but before Divine Liturgy I like pointing out to my friends around me my fascination at certain depictions on the icons (either on the walls or in the bulletins).
I’ve been to TLM’s as well, including High Masses. Overall, I think they are very well done. I admire the solemn reverence, the music and the liturgy itself. But, I don’t know: it’s the weirdest thing. In many ways I “feel” more at home with the TLM than the DL, since the NO still is of Latin tendencies, and that’s what I went to all my childhood. I guess there was one time when I felt normal in a NO setting, but there came a point (I think it was only after attending Divine Liturgy) that no longer could I attend NO and feel as though I belonged.
One thing I really like about the Eastern Divine Liturgy is that I don’t feel nearly as self-concious as I do when I’m at a Latin liturgy, be it NO or TLM. When at a Latin liturgy, I feel like there are many unspoken rules that you have to abide by once you enter the church. I’ve always felt spiritually constrained somewhat–as though things were too solemn and grave around me.
Grrr…you know, if it weren’t a matter of doctrine (which I consider very important and am not willing to compromise on) I’d probably join a traditional LCMS community.