… you have driven yourself into believing this concept of a controlled existence?
OUR EXISTENCE IS A CONTROLLED/ AIDED/ GOD GOVERNS OUR EXISTENCE, INCLUDES OUR WILLING AND ACTING.
CATHOLIC ENCYCLOPEDIA: Free Will
explains;
“God is the author of
all causes and effects, but is not the author of sin, because an action ceases to be sin if God wills it to happen. Still God is the
cause of sin.
God’s omnipotent providence exercises
a complete and perfect control over all events that happen, or will happen, in the universe.”
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CATHOLIC ENCYCLOPEDIA Divine Providence
explains;
Life everlasting
promised to us, (Romans 5:21);
but unaided we can do nothing to gain it (Rom.7:18-24).
“His wisdom He so
orders all events within the universe that the end for which it was created may be
realized.
God preserves the universe in being;
He acts in and with every creature in each and all its activities.
He directs all, even evil and sin itself, to the final end for which the universe was created.
All events preordained by God in accordance with His all-embracing purpose.
Evil, therefore, ministers to God’s design” (St. Gregory the Great, op. cit.,
Again, from the fact that God has created the universe, it shows that
He must also govern it; for just as the contrivances of
man demand attention and guidance, so God,
as a good workman, must care for His work.
That end is that
all creatures should manifest the glory of God, and
in particular that man should glorify Him, recognizing in nature the work of His hand,
serving Him in obedience and love, and thereby attaining to the full development of his nature and to
eternal happiness in God.”
http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/12510a.htm
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AS WE SEE ABOVE: GOD DESIGNED, DECREED, PREORDAINED EVERY EVENT FROM ALL ETERNITY which events He tailor-made to everyone of us includes every angels, Satan, Judas, etc.
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OUR FATE/ DESTINY IS NOT IN US IT IS IN GOD.
For Augustine says (De Civ. Dei v, 1) that the "Divine will or power is
called fate. "
But the Divine will or power is not in creatures, but in God. Therefore fate is
not in creatures but
in God.
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The Divine will is
cause of all things that happen, as Augustine says (De Trin. iii, 1 seqq.). Therefore
all things are
subject to fate.
The same is true for events in our lives. Relative to us they often appear to be by chance.
But relative to God, who
directs everything according to his divine plan, nothing occurs by chance.
Hence if this divine influence
stopped, every operation would
stop.
Every operation, therefore, of anything is
traced back to Him as its cause. (Summa Contra Gentiles, Book III.)
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St. Thomas (C. G., II, xxviii) if God’s purpose were made
dependent on the foreseen free act of any creature, God would thereby
sacrifice His own freedom, and would
submit Himself to His creatures, thus abdicating His essential supremacy–a thing which is, of course,
utterly inconceivable.
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God bless