Semantics and pschological wordplay are stale and unsatisfying in their attepts at finding understanding where there is none. What we have here are abominations, severe corruptions that crack the sense of purity within the priesthood itself. These things confound us because reason never can penetrate evil, nor explain it away. These are wounds that seep and never seem to heal. An apostasy within the priesthood is buckling the very foundations of the Church.
Personally, I used to struggle with the pain that these things wrought upon my soul, as if a dagger was being thrust into my heart, then bitterly turned; as if I was under assuault. These reports of abuse would slice me to the core. I prayed for a way in which to cope with such heartache, and what I discerned was that my pain was as if I were watching the Lord being scourged, and that the severity of my angst represented the depth of my love for Jesus Christ. These abominations hurt me so deeply because the Lord means so much to me. That has been a revelation to me. My suffering regarding these horrors has affirmed the breadth of my faith to myself.
Perhaps, the Church needs a new sort of internal “Inquisition”, in the purest sense of that term. Maybe, from the Horn of Africa to the Arctic Circle, every priest should be reevaluated, and be candidly re-appraised for their virtues, and vices. We must remove the corruption from the priesthood, before more damage can be done. It sounds extreme, but this current state of affairs cannot continue. The hierarchy must excise the cancer now, before it consumes the entire Church.
My hope for the Church in this time of trial reflects upon the tribulations of Saint Peter. He knew Jesus was the Son of God, yet he denied Him three times. Imagine the depths of despair this man must have endured during Christ’s Passion. But, the Holy Spirit buttressed him, just as Christ had foretold, and he perservered. Judas killed himself, but Peter was sustained. He was restored through grace.
The bones of Peter, the “Rock” of our religion, rest beneath the alter of the Basilca which bears his name (more than two-thousand years after his sin). Let us hope, that even through these dark days of the Clerical Sex Abuse Scandal, that the Roman Catholic Church will regain Herself, as Saint Peter did, and once again lead the world toward its only hope…Jesus Christ.