Oops…not sure I explained myself very well…

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No, you explained yourself quite clearly.

My response to your post was my usual “slightly provocative” poke-in-the-side-with-a-pointy-stick that I use as an “open question” to dig into what you’re thinking.
My point was that I believe that no one is truly an atheist, unless they are actively “converted” into (so-called) atheism by actual people promoting/proselytizing atheism.
I was never an atheist, but I was never “religious” as a kid (and young-to-middle adult). I always knew there was a God. It was always just a question of what God was “like” that confused me, until I discovered I was Catholic.
Actual atheists are not a-theists, in reality, but rather anti-Christian.
People throughout the world who we (westerners) describe as atheists are worshipers of some “greater power”. They are not truly a-theist. Only those people who have been heavily influenced by western “post-modernism” (scientistic materialistic quasi-rationalism), which LOVES syncretism by the way, have “lost” their worship of their “greater power” so that they can be “free” to worship themselves as gods.
So, what was your “greater power” as you were growing up? Mine was “beauty and order” (artistic and scientific) which I “worshiped” as the “thing” that was the organizing principle, and origin of the beauty of the world.
It’s only been in the last 3 years that I discovered (not “decided”) that I was Catholic, which gave me the true reality of what God is.
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