Here’s another thought for you @Struggling1
Even though I had my intense mystical experience which was the definitive moment that converted me from atheism to theism, it didn’t convert me to Catholicism - just a sort of generic Christian theism.
The experience I had happened in October 2010 - since then the memory and impact of the event have both faded significantly - to the point where when I read the account I wrote about 4 months after it happened today, I doubt that the experience even happened that way.
However, that doesn’t bother me since I’ve moved on from there - I am now convinced of God and the truth of Catholicism on a purely intellectual, theological & philosophical level. My experiential conviction of God still plays a part in my overall belief system, but ultimately I am now a believer because of the knowledge and wisdom I have learned of and found in Jesus and His Church.
Keep seeking and knocking at the door. Jesus will answer in one way or another so long as you persistently keep knocking and don’t turn away.
He may answer miraculously tonight, or he may answer naturally over the next two decades - but I assure you, he both hears and listens, and will answer, for his mercy endures forever.