You should talk to a Catholic Priest. It is called an “illumination of conscience” and happens to Catholics more then you think. It is life changing if/when it first happens to those who have been away from the Church.
i agree. psychologically there is the term spiritual “awakening”, epiphany, “outpouring of the Holy Spirit”, etc. basically an unexplainable and drastic change that happens in a single moment. a moment of clarity and peace. sometimes, an immeasurably bright light, like the lightning with St. Paul? a lot of this can be seen from people in Catholic charismatic movements. they are large numbers of people who are spiritually on fire for the Lord and behave similarly to “born again” christians, and many Catholics don’t understand this.
in the song “Show Me Your Glory” by Third Day, he talks about such an experience,
I caught a glimpse of Your splendor
In the corner of my eye
The most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen
** And it was like a flash of lightning**
Reflected off the sky
And I know I’ll never be the same
Show me Your glory
Send down Your presence
I want to see Your face
Show me Your glory
Majesty shines about You
I can’t go on without You, Lord
When I climb down the mountain
And get back to my life
I won’t settle for ordinary things
I’m gonna follow You forever
And for all of my days
I won’t rest 'til I see You again
Show me Your glory
Show me Your glory
I can’t live without You
it’s a beautiful song that often brings me to tears.
Most of who you are talking with have had this infused slowly throughout their lives since baptism and at every examination of conscience starting at 7 or 8 y.o. This is why your getting flack about it. Tim
this makes sense. there are some whom God blesses with a profound conversion. it is God’s decision that they need a swift kick in the back of the head. the rest are infused slowly.
i think the error may be when these people who were forgiven much and blessed with a profound conversion, and who usually in turn love Jesus very much (like in the parable of the Two Debtors), are viewing those who have not have a profound conversion as “unsaved” or not “born again”, due to their lack of fruits.
the reality is,
those who have had profound conversions (“saved”, “born again”) can still go astray and not produce good fruits (thus indicating “they were not really saved then.” which fallacy is that?), while those who have not had a profound conversion and were infused slowly can produce good fruits all their lives. either can end up rotten and in hell.
i think these “born again” churches are a concentrated congregation of such people with profound conversions who just seem to be so on fire for God. the majority of such churches are filled with people who produce good fruits. when they see the Catholic Church with its majority of people not appearing to be on fire for God, they assume this low density of people on fire for God is due to them not having profound conversions, not being “born again”, or not “saved”. this also contributes to the idea that the Catholic Church may not be the right church because it is not producing many of these conversions.
the Catholic Church numbers over 1 billion people worldwide.
if you could count the number of Catholics with profound conversions, it would eclipse those in Protestant churches completely. so what we see is the ratio of “born again” Catholics is small compared to the total number of Catholics, whereas the ratio in Protestant churches is high. fyi the SCRC is a charismatic movement in southern California which draws over 30,000 of “on fire” people in one weekend conference.
so what does this all mean?
there are many who are callled to live the Word of God without an extraordinary experience to help them along, while some are given that “kick in the back of the head” by God as i like to call it, to help them complete His eternal plan for them. this does not mean that those who were not given this most special gift by God do not have His Spirit within them. they just have a heavier cross to bear and many don’t seem to be succeeding as well. Mother Teresa would be a prime example of one who persevered to the end even without any profound “born again” or “saved” conversions, as far as i know.
if you have had this “born again” experience, you are very blessed and uniquely chosen by God for a purpose. for the non-Catholic ones, i imagine your church is like a safe haven with many around you who were also given this gift. the burden and cross you may be called to bear is to find out if the Catholic Church is truly the one church Jesus established on Earth, and to help lead the many who weren’t blessed with your gift, safely back home to Him.