I think the thing about “choosing”, is that it isn’t just standing in front of God and choosing to flick a switch like: “All else being equal, I’d rather experience pleasure in heaven than suffering in hell.” That’s not what true choice is… True ‘choice’ is about what we choose… when that choice comes at a cost. For example, can we really be said to ‘choose’ truth, if – when honesty will cost us something else we value, like popularity – we tell a lie?
No. In such a case, we showed our choice through our action, and when it came right down to it we preferred our own pride or comfort (popularity; whatever the motive for our lie) above truthfulness. The circumstances we experienced didn’t ‘force’ our choice – they just made our choice visible to us. And the reality tends to be that the choice comes down to love of self, or love of God & neighbour.
And the goal of human life is to become the kind of person who truly loves God and neighbour. The kind of person who, when it truly costs everything else , chooses to love God with all our heart, and all our mind, and all our soul, and all our strength. And the kind of person who loves our neighbour as ourself.
Because only when we are TRULY that kind of person – only when we are doing, here on earth, the will of Our Father in heaven – are we actually ‘choosing’ heaven. That is, heaven in the meaningful sense: eternal communion with our God who is love. Who IS choosing, and loving, the other. We have to enter into communion with Him here on earth: now, in this life. Today. This second.
It seems to me a fiction to tell ourselves that we can cultivate a character that is willfully ordered around love of self in this life, however that manifests in our particular circumstances – and then magically find after death that our eternal character is ordered towards love of other (the heavenly state). To think that we can become hellish (prideful, self-centred) in our choices in this life – and then to not experience the hellish state when our character is ‘fixed’ into the form we chose through our, well, choices.
I think it’s a good (if scary) exercise. To pray and figure out what we ACTUALLY choose, every day. Is it our popularity? Our pride and feeling good about our intellect? Our comfort and worldly experience of pleasures? What do we sacrifice? What do we choose?