The dilemma is that the Church teaches a loving God
I hope this doesn’t come off as disrespectful because I genuinely don’t mean it to be.
I think the issue is that you have a faulty conception of Love. You don’t seem to be able to reconcile the notions of discipline and justice with your idea of what love is.
I love my son with every fiber of my being, I would die for him. Regardless, when he does something wrong I still must discipline him. If he takes something from another person, or hits someone, then it’s my duty as his father to correct the behavior. He’s only 2 right now, but as he gets older that duty only becomes more pronounced because he has a greater comprehension of his actions. When he turns 18, he may make the choice to cut me out of his life entirely. That is not what I want (it’s the furthest thing from what I want), and I would do pretty much anything morally possible to prevent that from happening, but in the end it is still a choice he can make.
That choice carries consequences. If he won’t let me into his life then I can’t offer him money to help for college, or be there for him when his relationships break down. I can’t help him get better when he’s sick, or do
anything for him because of the choice
he made.
God’s love is the same. He loves us with a ferocity we can’t even comprehend. My love for my son is a pale imitation of His love for us. Any yet, despite that love, He gives us the free will to able to tell Him no, and cut Him out of our lives. If we make that choice, that ultimate
NO to the one who created us and from whom all Goodness flows then, out of love and respect for our autonomy, He will respect that decision.
Everything else about Hell is merely the consequence of that choice. Since we have rejected the Good, then we cannot have Good. Since we have chosen to embrace evil, then we will have Evil. It is painful because that is all it
can be, it is hateful because that it all it
can be. It is judgment because, by rejecting the Good of His mercy, that is all God has left to give us.
It is also the furthest thing from what God wants for us, just as a hard life separated from me is the furthest thing from what I want for my son. But, if that is the choice He makes then, as his father I will have to accept it and pray that He changes his mind. If he doesn’t before either of us dies, then that is the state our worldly relationship will end in. More than hoping and praying, God spends every moment of every day trying to get back into the hearts and minds of everyone who has rejected Him, He is doing everything possible to prevent that ultimate no, short of violating the free will He has given us.
I hope this helps you understand why there is no conflict here, not talking out of both sides of our mouth.