Drawmack,
Having read through all of your posts since the last time I responded, up until I started writing this anyway… I am truly sorry for the horror that you’ve had to live through, that you may still be living through, in ways mentally, emotionally and spiritually. But, I, and many others are not unaware.
Apparently we all handle what happens to us in the way that we understand best. I do
understand more of your plight, however, I do not believe that excuses your attacks here on the Church for what you perceive to be a horrible injustice. In all truth it is probably just
that you don’t understand something correctly, for whatever reason, perhaps you are
incapable of understanding since from what you said yourself in an earlier post, you quit praying years ago. Perhaps you are just angry with God, perhaps as a child you blamed Him for not answering your prayers and now you turned your back on His Church.
While I am certainly not God, never claimed to be and have no idea in this, but I would
guess that in perhaps in your case, the one who abused you may be the one that God holds responsible for you ultimately leaving the Church, not praying, etc…I don’t know.
Like I said, I’m not God, I believe in His everlasting mercy though. I believe He awaits your return.
I also understand now better why that Priest would have suggested to you that eventually
you get to the point where you either agree with the Church or leave. You constantly battle one thing after another, I suggest it isn’t us that you are trying to convince, but rather yourself for the decision you made, and at that time, for the decision you were trying to make.
There have been many times in my life when I have come home from either Mass, praying at Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament, at a chapel for the Rosary, from a Shrine,
the Cathedral, whatever…and have found invitations from denominations in the area, either in my mail box, on my porch or hanging off the handle to my door, yet still I’m Catholic and go to the Catholic Church. Never once did I take that as a sign from God that He wanted me to go to some other denomination, and if I did, well, I’d still have quite a choice to make since there were so many different ones, from different denominations.
Decisions,decisions, I wonder which one He really wants me at?

(Seems rather ridiclous when put that way doesn’t it? There are so many to choose from aren’t there? Especially when one has so many left at their feet.
Discernment comes through prayer. When you pray for discernment you find out one of three things,
- Is this MY will. 2. Is this GOD’s will. or 3. Is this from the evil one.
I suggest that neither you or the one who chooses mortal sin prayed at all. You both
therefore ended up lost.
Earlier you said that you quit praying years ago and then you say you came home from
praying and found the ad for another denomination at your feet. Which is it? You quit praying or you didn’t quit praying? Make up your mind.
In either case, giving you the benefit of the doubt yet again, lets say it was after you finally, from years of not praying, finally deceided to start praying again and then came home and found that from that denomination you are now in. You ought to have gone back to prayer, that is discernment, after, not before you make a decision.
We could battle back on forth on this endlessly, but why bother? You’ve made your decison, and I hope you are finally happy now, but it doesn’t sound like it.
I on the other hand, have a completely different story, which I may share at some point, it is one of prayer, Sacraments, sticking with Jesus through it all and I still am happy I did that and I can pray and offer sacrifices and sufferings for the salvation of souls that are in dire need of prayer.
I will keep you in my prayers as you work through your volunteer time helping people to
know and understand just what abortion is, and I do hope that you suggest lots of prayer and that you yourself offer prayers for them. I know I will.