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Thank you all for your kind replies. The medications are kind of wiping me out today. I thank you so much for all you have said and I will remember or try to remember how God loves me.
Carmel
Carmel
Dear mslizzie and Carmel,
I can’t tell you how my heart lifted when I read your
last two posts. How very brave you both are.![]()
Hi Ms Reen,
My bravery is nothing as compared to yours. You have endured this illness for the last 50 years and mine was only for the last 3 yrs or so.
To tell you honestly, your posts are very inspiring. I always look forward to it.
Thank you, mslizzie. I used to post on some of theTake care and God bless!
Once you understand that the mind isn’t real, your mental illness will disappear. Where is your mental illness at night, when the mind is not active? If it were real, would it not be there at all times?Hi everyone, sorry if this post is lengthy. I am new here and I want to let you know that I do suffer from a mental illness (Schizoaffective disorder) I was deiagnosed in 2005 after being hospitalized. I have had 2 suicide attempts in the past which I truly regret.
I am a wife and a mother to three beautiful girls.
To start of, I was not spiritual or religious in the past eventhough I was raised Catholic and received all the Sacraments.
It was only last year (July), that I found the Lord. I called on Him during the most difficult stages of my pregnancy. I almost fell into severe depression and psychosis that time and was almost hospitalized. But fortunately, with God’s grace, I was able to go into full term and I had delivered a healthy baby girl.
I am currently taking medications for my illness and there are still times when I would be paranoid about certain things. It is like a roller coaster ride as far as my emotions are concerned.
Each day, I pray to God that I am hoping that He will heal me of my illness. It has not happened and I am not losing hope.
I would like to know from the other people who post here if they think that God is still with me inspite of my mental illness. I don’t want to think that I am being possessed by the devil because I do have emotions.
I love my family so much and I am doing all my best to get better.
I regularly take my doctor’s advice, I go to therapy and never stops taking my meds.
Is there hope that I may recover from this illness with my strong faith in Him?
Thank you all for listening!
My doctor said to take the Klonoin only for the duration than I can stop after a while. I am also taking Geodon, Luvox, and effexor xr, but at very high levels. I just sometimes think I am cured and don’t need them anymore and then I get into trouble again. I will try so hard to take them. Since I have first posted, I have felt God’s love for me and I don’t think he is mad at me at the moment What a wonderful feeling!I too hope this is true and it will give me a lot to think about this Good Friday. I hope to go to services, even if I know they are talking about me. The doctor on Monday gave me clonopin (sp?) to help with the anxiety. I have been taking my medication regularly since then. So maybe by Friday, things will be better. Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. May God bless you abundantly. And I will be praying for you, Reens, for your lab tests. Thank you Liz and Grace Angel for being a friend when I needed a friend.
Glad to hear you are taking your meds, Carmel. I am currently taking Abilify, Ativan and Seroquel. My doc said Klonopin is habit forming so I am just taking the three I mentioned. Take care and I will pray for you.
With love,
Lizzie
Thank you for the comforting words, Mike. I was actually at the church with my 2 daughters last night, to attend the Last Supper mass. It felt very good just to be there and after the mass itself, being in the adoration of the blessed sacrament. I felt at peace with the Lord.Once you understand that the mind isn’t real, your mental illness will disappear. Where is your mental illness at night, when the mind is not active? If it were real, would it not be there at all times?
By all means, continue taking your medicine, but when you have some free time, try to trace your thoughts back to where they come from. Find the source.
Indeed, God is with you in spite of your mental illness. Go to that place from which thoughts arise…the place that is still and silent, prior to all thought. When you arrive there, there will be no issue of mental illness. You will be alone with God.
That is a very good news to hear, Carmel, that you are taking all your meds.CarmelG;3453581]My doctor said to take the Klonoin only for the duration than I can stop after a while. I am also taking Geodon, Luvox, and effexor xr, but at very high levels. I just sometimes think I am cured and don’t need them anymore and then I get into trouble again. I will try so hard to take them. Since I have first posted, I have felt God’s love for me and I don’t think he is mad at me at the moment What a wonderful feeling!
I am so sorry that this has happened, Carmel.Thank you for all your kindness. My boss just called up and fired me. I don’t know why, except that I’ve been sick. He said it was a lot of little things and that people were complaining (but this is the first I’ve heard of people were complaining). I thought everyone liked me and that I was doing a good job. I’,m stunned and don’t know what to feel right now except sadness.
Thank you, Reens. I’m feeling a little better about it today. Thank you for the prayers; I need them right now.quote: Carmel
I am so sorry that this has happened, Carmel.
I hope that there is someone near, whom you
can speak with, about this.
I can surely understand that you feel stunned
and sad.
Please know that I am praying that God will
be with you, especially today.
reens
I disagree with this quote above. Just substitute names of other illnesses for the words “mental illness” and you see how silly it is. Just as silly are these statements:Once you understand that the mind isn’t real, your mental illness will disappear. Where is your mental illness at night, when the mind is not active? If it were real, would it not be there at all times?
All who sail the sea of faith
Find out before too long
How quickly blue skies can grow dark
And gentle winds grow strong
Suddenly fear is like white water
Pounding on the soul
Still we sail on knowing
That our Lord is in control
Sometimes He calms the storm
With a whispered peace be still
He can settle any sea
But it doesn’t mean He will
Sometimes He holds us close
And lets the wind and waves go wild
Sometimes He calms the storm
And other times He calms His child
He has a reason for each trial
That we pass through in life
And though we’re shaken
We cannot be pulled apart from Christ
No matter how the driving rain beats down
On those who hold to faith
A heart of trust will always
Be a quiet peaceful place
Thanks, Dana for the beautiful lyrics. Wish I could listen to the actual songMay God’s peace and love be with you are you deal with your illness.
Dana, I love your motto. Do you mind if I make it my own. I think it will help me when I am suffering. My psychologist tells me that God can heal a little at a time as we work together to deal with the issues either causes or surrounding the disease. I think he is right. When I am in confusion, I feel God’s presence sometimes and everything seems to be alright.Dealing with a mental illness is difficult for the person and those who love them. I have Bipolar, and though I would like to be free of the disease, I believe that God’s healing does mean that he will remove the disease from my body. He has a plan, which I could never understand, so when I feel overwhelmed by my symptoms I seek God’s help in getting me through.
My motto is: Joy is not the absence of suffering, but the presnce of God.
Carmel,Dana, I love your motto. Do you mind if I make it my own. I think it will help me when I am suffering. My psychologist tells me that God can heal a little at a time as we work together to deal with the issues either causes or surrounding the disease. I think he is right. When I am in confusion, I feel God’s presence sometimes and everything seems to be alright.
Bookgirl, I also have OCD; I know it can be terrible. I have had it since I was 15 and I am now 52. In the past 37 years I have learned to deal with the behaviors (I try like anything to ignore them and tell myself it is all anxiety that nothing bad is going to happen and I give it to God which helps tremendously - like if I have to check to front door a few dozen times, after two times I pray to God to put angels at the door so nothing bad can get in; it seems to work for me) but I am also taking Luvox for the ruminations in the mind that I can’t ignore. Are you taking medications? They can help tremendously.
Just know that I understand what you are going through and you can overcome the behaviors to a certain degree. The bad thoughts that are mostly sacrileges when I have them I tell myself they are a part of the disease and God does not hold that against me. I just try not to ruminate on them and let them go as if they were impure thoughts that crossed my mind.
My heart goes out to you. And know that the people on this thread are very nice and kind and they have helped me tremendously.
Peace to you, little sister – Carmel