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francisca
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Dear ceciliatherese,
You are still young, and is still growing in body and mind and soul. You are calling yourself bisexual, however, such self-identification is based on little sexual experience because of your age.
From what you write about “drawing pretty girls since you were six”, rest assured that such behavior is common among young girls. It is also very normal to be more comfortable talking to, and spend time with your own gender. You are young and do not know much about sex yet, therefore you think that your childhood hobby to draw pretty girls and your interest with your own gender is something sexual, when the fact is you do not know much about sex, not yet.
Even married women sometimes feel more comfortable talking to their own gender. It is normal because human being are social being. It is also normal that “you don’t feel anything when you talk to boys/men”. Human being are supposedly socialize in friendship with both their own gender and the opposite gender.
It is very common too that young people look at their own gender and then “interested”. Interested with other individual of their own gender possibly caused by many factors. For example many boys/men likes Elvis Presley or Michael Jackson, David Beckham, not necesarrily in a sexual way. Yet the feeling of idolizing somebody can be as intense as “imaginative falling in love”.
In young girls, this may be manifested in this way: she sees a woman (in clothes or naked), and she thought “how beautiful she is”. This view is her own self awareness comparing herself with her imagination of a woman she wants to look like when she grow-up.
The feeling of “looking up to the beautiful woman she wants to be” can be so intense that the young girl mistaken it with “sexual interest”. And since young girls nowadays being exposed to idea about “gay”-- this idea of “gay” condemn her into thinking that “I am gay” or “I am bisexual”.
Human sexuality is a very powerful thing. Human body is extremely beautiful. However, God’s enemies always want to present these things in the opposite way, and turn the power of it to ourselves. It tries to present things in a perverted way, a lie at a time. The idea of “gay” or “bi-sexuality” is a lie in itself. If we know the truth, Jesus say, the truth will sets us free.
Porn, BDSM, etc. These are perversion of human sexuality. You get addicted because such is the spirit of idolatry (God’s enemies enslave people). Please attend a prayer group in your parish, pray and praise the Lord together with them. The Lord will surely show you the way in which He has prepared for you, not the way which doesn’t exist. The bible say that the way of the righteous is straight, but the wicked ways are crooked, full of sharp turns places to slip on. Choose the easy path: the straight one!
God bless you always.