Guy, now that I have a little time I’ll try to get to some of the specifics in your post.
I accept the primacy of Peter, as set out in the gospel, but I’m still trying to work out, taking everything I know to date in relation to how the early church was constructed and run, how the primacy of Peter developed into the infallible (I know that refers to faith and doctrine only) Pope we have today.
Honestly I would not spend to much time on this. The thing to remember is that the growth of the Church is an organic thing. One that developed as the Church did from a few hundred to over a billion disciples. After all, it is Christ’s Body.
The infallibility issue shouldn’t be a problem either. Peter recieved the Keys as Vicar of Christ with power to bind and loose. This power is shared with the Bishops of the Church through the magisterium. The Primacy has not really developed at all. Only the “trappings” of that primacy and infallibility. Only the practices have changed.
At the present time I still cannot buy into all the Marian dogmas.
I addressed some of this in my earlier post and will not belabor the point here. I will ask if, given the number of things that you DO accept, chief among them being the Real Presence, do you think the Marion Doctrines ore important enough to keep you away from communion with Christ in the Eucharist?
The Gospel makes no mention of Mary’s assumption into heaven (although I dont necessarily think because it’s not mentioned it isnt or cant be so), but I struggle with a Pope declaring it is so.
Equally, catholics are forced to believe in Mary’s Immaculate conception. I know the scripture passages used to evidence this, but to be perfectly honest, I do go hmmm, when I read the Pope declared it so, in 1854, and 4 years later at Lourdes, Mary appears and refers to herself as the Immacualte Conception.
Certainly we are not “Forced” to believe, nor did the pope simply “Declare” the doctrines. And Yes it is very interesting that we have the “coincidence” of Lourdes.
The Pope doesn’t simply wake up and make declarations. Such matters are always thoroughly examined and passed on by the magisterium. The Declarations are then issued over the signature of the Pontiff.
We accept these teachings because we accept the Church just as we accept Christ.
Now what one does with this acceptance is another matter. Some who have a great personal devotion to Our Lady accept such declarations with great joy. Others who perhaps have a less strong personal devotion simply accept the teaching and move on.
In my case I must say that I have never really had a strong devotion to Our Blessed Mother. I prefer to pray directly to The Father, and mostly do so. However, I have also been asking for Our Lady’s help more often lately. In either case I have violated no Doctrinal declarations of the Church. Do you see what I mean?
I also am wondering more and more why it is that Mary seems to appear a lot in the catholic church.
Why not other saints?
Mary is our Spiritual Mother and We, as Her children should Honor Her. I will admit that some folks seem to go overboard sometimes, but please remember that these are personal devotions and not doctrinal issues.
Or Jesus Himself?
Or a manifistation of the Holy Spirit?
Perhaps this has happened and Im not aware of it but it’s certainly not on the frequency of the appearances of Mary.
Here you have me. The Church is fully Christ centered. Make no mistake about that.
I really do believe that true catholics do not worship Mary, and believe she is a means to come closer to her divine Son, but I am really struggling with the catholic churchs obsession with Mary, and the dogmatic requirements in relation to Mary it wants to place on me in order for me to become a catholic.
Yes, it can be a struggle, but I think you are headed in the right direction. The thing to ask yourself is this. What is the Church really asking me to believe about Mary? Is the Church going to force me to pray the Rosary or to pray any other prayer to Our Lady? Does the Church deny me direct access to Christ or the Father?
The answers to these questions should be, “No, the Church is not forcing these thing on me.”
This is one of the things that I meant when I talked earlier about the great depth and understanding of the Church. Even though you are concerned about these dogmatic beliefs, you are perfectly free to apply these beliefs in most any way you choose in your personal devotions. You may accept and act upon them, building devotions around them as some do, or you can accept them and move on to other aspects of spirituality.
The thing to do is to not let your concerns on these matters derail you and prevent you from coming into communion with The Church and receiving Christ bodily into you.
Surely it is all about Jesus.
Nothing more nothing less.
And if am right with Jesus, how can that relationships be somehow imperfected by my relationship with the catholic church?
If I am on the right road, please keep praying for me that I will see it.
Again I must say that the concepts of being “right with Jesus” and coming into “Full Union” with Christ are matters that will require much reading and prayer and discussion.
That is why I asked if I had recommended the book
"Fulfillment of All Desire" to you.
There is so much to try and communicate and it is so difficult sometimes to communicate it because words are so inadequate. I do hope I am not confusing you.
Peace
James