Okay, I am not talking about committing suicide, which is a mortal sin, but is it wrong for a person to want to die of natural causes. For example a person wishes that they would get in a car accident caused by another person, or that they would get a heart attack or an aneurysm. I know its a weird situation, but how would it be sinful for someone to want to die, but still go on living if nothing happens?
Good news, bad news. Bad news first.
These examples don’t sound good. Better than suicidal, yes - but since God has us here, He apparently wants us here for now. We will eventually die but Jesus tells us to “work while it is day, the night comes when no one can work …” - paraphrase.
If life is a cross, Jesus tells us to carry it and follow Him.
Good News:
“Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say Rejoice!” - St. Paul.
St. Paul is good to quote on this one - because at some times he seems conflicted as to what to do and what he is feeling. For example"
2 Corinthians 5:6
*6 So we are always courageous, although we know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, 7 for we walk by faith, not by sight.
8 Yet we are courageous, and we would rather leave the body and go home to the Lord.
9Therefore, we aspire to please him, whether we are at home or away.
10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive recompense, according to what he did in the body, whether good or evil.
11 Therefore, since we know the fear of the Lord, we try to persuade others; but we are clearly apparent to God, and I hope we are also apparent to your consciousness.
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Paul has feelings close to part of what you describe (not suicidal, but rather yearning) -
yet he defers to God, trying to please HIM whether at “home” (heaven where God is) or “away” (here on Earth, serving others, as God appears to want THAT now since He has not called us “home”).
Romans 8:18 I consider that the sufferings of this present time are as nothing compared with the glory to be revealed for us.
19 For creation awaits with eager expectation the revelation of the children of God;
20 for creation was made subject to futility, not of its own accord but because of the one who subjected it, in hope
21 that creation itself would be set free from slavery to corruption and share in the glorious freedom of the children of God.
22 We know that all creation is groaning in labor pains even until now;
23 and not only that, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, we also groan within ourselves as we wait for adoption, the redemption of our bodies.
24 For in hope we were saved. Now hope that sees for itself is not hope. For who hopes for what one sees?
25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait with endurance.
26 In the same way, the Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groanings.
2 Corinthians 5:1 For we know that if our earthly dwelling, a tent, should be destroyed, we have a building from God, a dwelling not made with hands, eternal in heaven.
**2 For in this tent we groan, longing to be further clothed with our heavenly habitation
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3 if indeed, when we have taken it off, we shall not be found naked.
4 For while we are in this tent we groan and are weighed down, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life.
More good news than bad! Part of a holy person’s journey is sometimes to feel like one wants to die. St. John of the Cross called it a “dark night of the soul.” Elijah himself was about to hang it up emotionally when God sent him an angel with some food. In FACT, Jesus Himself in the Garden was torn the other way. ABOUT to die and fulfill His life - He was torn by many things too - and received an Angel’s strengthening. We KNOW Jesus did not sin in His “sorrow unto death” nor his request to “let this cup pass” - but we also know that he carried His cross to the end - and victory.
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