I am so in doubt these days. Which church is the true one? Why do i feel dragged to the russian-orthodox church (i have never been to one or attended liturgy there or even speak russian). Yet i feel drawn to it for some reason.
Actually, i feel like two persons are dragging in me, one to the west and one to the east.
Does orthodox pray the rosary? Does orthodox christians look at people like me (catholic that looking for an old and more or less untouched liturgy) and old-true traditions like confused souls or second rate)?
I got so many thoughts going, it affects my prayerlife and i feel like “outside” myself when attending mass. And i can only imagine what my pastor/parish priest would react like if i told him about my confused feelings these days…
Please pray for, inside…every cell is crying and asking what God wants me to do…
Don’t be afraid to talk to your priest. He might be able to help.
You know what, I’ll help you out a bit. I was being tempted with Orthodoxy awhile ago. I talked to a very nice RC priest about it. Some of what he told me:
About Papal Supremecy
The Church has a very balanced approach to this: the pope is the “final word,” in juridical and administrative decisions; but he is also just a bishop, the bishop of Rome. The charism of infallibility is rooted in the unity of the bishops, manifested then in the voice of the bishop of Rome. There are very fine but important theological distinctions here, but don’t think that there is a monarchistic kind of working to the theology: that is a bit more administrative. Only in rare circumstances does the pope have to correct the wayward. The New Testament of course points to Peter, the rock upon which the Church is built, the visible head of the Body of Christ, His Vicar on earth.
Finally, all of the bishops are servants of the truth: they are entrusted with it and hand it on to others. They don’t change it, they just teach it and interpret it authoritatively and authentically.
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The pope is superior to any other bishop in only one way: his ability to invoke the charism of infallibility contrary to discordant bishops (even when the discordance represents a numerical majority, as it did in the Arian heresy).
There is a balance, as I tried to explain in my previous email, in the Church’s understanding of the collegiality of all bishops and the hierarchy of the Church’s administrative structure, which is infused with the grace of governance even in its bureaucratic structure. The idea of an autocephalous church is not helpful, because Christ is the head of the body, the Church. The pope is his vicar, his visible representative, on earth.
Also, when you think about the unity (oneness, being a mark of the Church) of the Church, and Orthodoxy, look at, for example, the OCA. You have some who recognize autocephaly, The Ecumenical Patriarch doesn’t.
A really great book is “The Russian Church and the Papacy”, published by Catholic Answers, it helped me.
Very few Orthodox pray the Rosary.
Peace