George,
I actually feel your pain and have suffered somewhat similar events though not that bad. I endured and now rejoice with all my heart and soul. Praise God!
Pray for those priests. Priests are human and as such, sinners like you and me, and we have good ones and bad ones.
I left the Catholic Church and Christ’s body back in 1979. I fell into the trap of Protestantism and felt good, very good as a matter of fact. I did get tired of the consistent bigotry from the pulpit by Baptist preachers towards any other religions (mostly Catholics) but overlooked it. I could do anything I wanted because I new I was ‘saved’ and ‘once saved always saved’. As a result of that faulty belief, I sinned often and watched others in my church sin on a routine basis all the while smiling and walking around with our heads stuck in some hole blind to Gods Word.
Fortunately I read the Bible and when the preacher contradicted the associate preacher and both preachers also contradicted the Scriptures. I don’t know why, but after 27 years I finally had a Baptist preacher take on the Book of James. What a mistake he made, not just the mere thought of referring to it, but actually trying to teach from it. No Baptist should ever even acknowledge the Book of James exists if they want to keep members. In 27 years I never recalled one sermon from the Book of James in those churches. When I discovered one error I actually began to find more with their theology. I studied the history of the Church, early writings, and theological beliefs. I began to learn “CONTEXT” and found much of what I thought true was only true if taken out of context. The Bible I believed in needed 1 verse at minimum and a complete one would have been fine with 1 book of about 30 chapters. I’m a bit embarrassed I fell for it all now that I look back.
My point is this. All religions have good and bad clergy in them. Christ never promised being a Christian would be easy and often said it would be difficult. Regardless of a few bad clergy you must look at the Church and the Gospel Jesus taught and that is found only in the Catholic Church. The Bible based religions all base their entire belief on a single tool of the Catholic Church. Do not rely on the tool, put you Faith in Jesus and the Church He founded to guide us. Follow the Faith He teaches from within it. Imagine if in 1,517 years people stopped going to the mechanic and said all we need to fix our car is a wrench. A wrench is good but it is not a mechanic and cannot do what a mechanic can do. In the Bible it says:
Mk 9:43-48 "43 If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life maimed than with two hands to go into Gehenna, into the unquenchable fire…45 And if your foot causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life crippled than with two feet to be thrown into Gehenna. 47 And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out. Better for you to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye than with two eyes to be thrown into Gehenna, 48 where ‘their worm does not die, and the fire is not quenched.’”
Stay in the Church. Go back and try to see if maybe you just got a hold of a priest that just had his sister or mother die. If he is a jerk then try to find a parish with a good priest. Don’t pick a church simply because it makes you feel good or you’ll end up a Mormon, JW, etc… Pick a religion because Jesus founded it in 33 A.D. Do not pick one invented by a man like Luther in 1517 (Lutheran and basically all protestants from there), or John Smyth in 1607 (Baptists), Joseph Smith in 1823 (LDS). Your soul is more important then just liking a priest, you must have Faith, Hope and Love. You must ‘endure’ to the end. Most protestants do not have Faith, they have ‘faith alone’. They do not have Hope, they have assurance. Some claim they have Love, but do not show it to all people (especially Catholics).
I would rather cut off my legs so I could not go to a false church and endure a true one with a poor priest then to tell Jesus at my judgment that I just took the easy way out knowing I was insulting Him and turning my back on His truth. I would rather enter paradise with no legs and a cleaner soul and suffer through life with a jerk priest. Someday the priest will move one and another will replace him. Your soul is too important to risk to any ‘vile whim or fancy’ of self-interpretation.
What would have happened if the first Catholics/Christians said I’d rather worship graven images of gods then get fed to the lions? They suffered and died to preserve the Tradition and verbal Gospel of Christ for you and me. There was no Bible in those days. Do not dishonor them, Christ or your own soul by leaving His body.
A prisoner of Christ
PS, try to look for an Eastern Right Church too.