I think that if we mention these sorts of things, people think we are boasting (or mad), because it sounds as if we are saying we are saints or something. I read St. Teresa of Avila for many, many years before I ever had the sort of experiences she had. Over and over again during those years, her books told me that it was not she herself that was glorious & that any glory that people might see in her was the glory of God, and that she was only the dross. I never believed her when I read that. Whenever I read that, I thought that either (1) She was a saint, and she knew she was a saint, but of course would not admit to that, or (2) She was such a saint she didn’t know she was a saint. When, after 29 years of practice, I was finally hit over the head with these things, I understood that St. Teresa was merely stating THE FACT when she said that all the goodness is in God and nothing in us. I can’t remember where, but somewhere in her writing, she talks about how she can sometimes talk about these things almost matter-of-factly and it perhaps sounded to others as if she were being glib, or something like that. When you have these sorts of things happen to you, it is an art and it is a science, but it is most of all A JOB. 24 hours a day, no holidays, ever. Most of it is very hard slog. Persecutions, slander, betrayals, thefts, exile. Unexplained maladies! I’ve been feeling absolutely terrible for the past 30 years until the Lord snapped me out if about 10 days ago. Wow. It’s really great to be able to stay standing all day like everybody else! I’m trying to be really good so that he doesn’t slap me with the prostration again. People who are not contemplatives have no idea of what it is about. I practiced for nearly three decades and then was astounded to find out what it was about. (Hint: The Army. Get in line. Shut up. Do as you are told. Have courage in every moment. ) I wish more people would practice, because it’s lonely out here. If I can do it, so can you. Mysticism is normal. A lot of books will say you shouldn’t pray for these gifts which are undoubtedly far greater than any of us deserve, but I say, Be Spiritually Ambitious, and ask the Lord to come to you. Be warned – there is a price – but when you finally get there, all the suffering seems like nothing, nothing at all. You can’t believe that THAT was all it took?