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I am in need of help. I am a man in my early 30’s and married and a father. I have struggled with sins of impurity for 18+ years. I have always been a Catholic, I started to take my faith serious 2 years ago. I know what I am doing is wrong but I can’t seem to stop it. I’ve read the books, talked to priests, had prayers done for me, etc. I go to confession every week, I go to Mass 3 times a week, I try to receive the Eucharist at every Mass, AS LONG AS I AM NOT IN A STATE OF MORTAL SIN. I was so bad so many years, I am making very little progress, my marriage is “ok” for now, it’s by the grace of God it’s as good as it is. I feel like I’m living 2 lives. I wear the Miraculous medal, I consecrated my heart to Mary 3-25-04, I know I am supposed to pray when I am tempted, but when I get tempted my mind goes blank, the attraction of the sin is all I can see. I know I am supposed to advoid occassions of sin, but can’t seem too, I pray daily, I say a Rosary daily, I read the Bible daily. I don’t know if I really love God, if I did I would quit this, right. I think I love God but I must not, I did some research on the topic of Masturbation and they say 95% of all men do it regularly, even though they don’t admit it, they tried to justify it, I want to stop, but I can’t. I’m acting like a horny teenager instead of a grown man. I’ve heard to make the sign of the cross, say the names of Jesus and Mary, pray, etc. That’s all fine and dandy but if your mind goes blank then what? Can anyone help me? Someone has to be able to give me advice. My wife doesn’t know about any of this. Are there any books or any suggestions. Please somebody help me!!!