It has been awhile since I have posted anything, much has happened.
John and I will have been divorced 3 years in February. We have gone through some ups and downs, but the fact is that I have wanted to go to couseling and he refuses since he thinks it won’t work. He has also continued his online relations and I just can’t be with someone who is dividing his time with me and another woman. I have met a another guy during this time. He is a good Christian. As much as I believe that marriage is a very sacred vow and something that by law we have already split, I don’t think I am suppose to be miserable for the rest of my life. I have gone to therapy, visited with the priest, read books and bascially have turned my life inside out to make this work. It makes me sad that things are the way they are and I do love John, but I am not willing to give my life over to him, it already belongs to the Lord. I pray that the both of us will find peace.