Indifferent…
Thank you for sharing your experience in the confessional. What I recommended to non-Catholics would be most efficacious for them.
I attended RCIA for awhile. We have this older couple, the wife a Lutheran and on fire to become a Catholic, her husband, an Episcopalian holding back, but attending and very congenial.
When we came to the sacrament of penance, the comment of taking one’s sins to the priest caused them to look at the pastor. Not being a mind reader, I however got the impression they were responding with the thought, ‘we go to him?..with our sins???’ It made me chuckle.
Then a number of us said we find going to confession difficult, like carrying a load, and it is embarrassing, even if it isn’t too much…there is a grace to going to monthly confession. That surprised them.
Anyway, they both entered the Church. I spoke with them later about that time in class and how I read their reaction. They said they understand now…the priest represents Him, the priest is the human face of Christ Who is the human face of God the Father.
When I begin to open up with my sins, the load starts going away and I begin to experience the sweet presence of Jesus with me…then I no longer am aware of the priest, but begin to be fully open to Christ Himself. When the priest then gives absolution, I feel such a power and grace that is not of the priest but of Christ Himself, that it affirms the reality of Christ present in the sacraments.
The sacraments are concrete signs of the life of Christ with us. No subjective relativism and confusion.
The sacrament of confession is also the sacrament of healing. I have found I will state a physical weakness in the confession…brought on by some sin of some sort that impacts the body because of the consequence of sin…stress and tension? I don’t know about this, just speculating…
But when I bring to Christ a physical difficulty, I am intending for Him to heal that part of me.
I got out, many times forgetting everything and feel so connected and wholesome to the world around me. But later on in reflection…if I do go back, I found that ailment was gone.