Hi there, no, I didn’t feel that you were being critical at all. In fact, having read through your other threads I can see that you are desperately trying to work your way through a period of spiritual dryness at the moment, looking for some answers and direction….which other people have been very forthcoming with.
My heart goes out to you, I’ve been somewhere similar too a few times in the past.
You seem to be particularly interested in the way God communicates with me in person, my direct experience of God. I thought I’d explain in as few words as possible, starting with the most frequent and building up to the least. This is not a comprehensive list.
So, in order….
- In my thoughts and intuitions - constantly
I have a conscience which knows good and evil. The Holy Spirit is constantly at work in my mind and my senses prompting me to choose the good, creative, life affirming, loving choice of thought and deed, rather than the destructive or self centred. For me this is the still small voice that Elijah hears after the wind, earthquake and fire in 1 Kings 19.
I believe this is what discernment is, the ability to make choices in line with God’s will
- Through prayer and contemplation - twice daily
This is time which I put aside to spend with God, not only praising Him and making intercessions, but quieting my mind and listening too.
‘And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.’
Isaiah 30:21
- Through the Bible - daily
God speaks to me through His Word, the Bible. I think this is self explanatory.
The words of God enter my mind and shape my thoughts in such a way that I begin making more choices which align with God’s will rather than my own. See 1 above.
‘For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.’
Hebrews 4:12
- Through epiphanies - periodically
Occasionally I have a religious epiphany, an experience of a sudden and striking realisation related to my faith, whereby maybe some reading I’ve been doing, together with something I’ve heard or seen, come together in my thoughts to bring about a significant shift in my thinking. An ‘aha’ moment. These are relatively rare occurrences and generally follow a process of significant reflection.
Think of the traveller’s experience of Jesus in Luke 24:13.
- In mystical experiences – very rarely, four times in 24 years
My mystical experiences have been a particular variety of religious experience in which my awareness has been transformed, I have lost my sense of individuality, and gained a sense of the oneness of all reality, union with God. I accept that these sorts of experiences are rare and a Grace of God. These experiences are like a ‘tearing of the veil’ which opens your eyes onto a new, parallel reality.
I hope this explanation helps you, and even opens your eyes to the way in which God is already speaking to you.