All my words are empty of meaning. All words are empty of meaning. You give all words meaning yourself and what they specifically mean to you will be a reflection of you. A platitude is a word or phrase which through over use has become less powerful, even boring. I agree, but there is a reason why the kinds of phrases I used are used so often. It’s because that’s what we humans believe to be true. You are saying you are doubtful that they are true so that’s why they seem like empty platitudes to you.
So if like Thomas you need proof of the existence of God, then I’d assume that no account given by anyone in writing or on film would suffice to rekindle your belief. I don’t blame you for that. And if you’re in that frame of mind about things then presumably no stories in the bible would help either, so that’s out. That just leaves you to have your own experiences of God yourself then doesn’t it.
All I can say is, ask, through prayer communicate your desire for faith to God. If after that you notice nothing change then you have a choice, either to carry on with your religion or to seemingly abandon it.
Personally I have had some very odd experiences and I can tell you that at all least, all is not what it seems. My explanation for these things is that God is real, since He is who i have prayed to in addition to the Holy Mother. Perhaps your ‘journey’ is meant to be different, and that wouldn’t surprise me since we are to some extent unique in relation to each other.
As far as anger Is concerned, I was angry at God as well, sometimes I still am, I wasted my whole life waiting for Him, or so I thought, now I know He never left me. I try to remember that I’m not owed anything but I owe everything…to God.
Having said all that, please forget everything I’ve said, because God is guiding you I have no doubt. I wish you well and I hope God blesses you with the reward you deserve, great faith.