Oh Moe
is bleeding for you and with you Moe.**SOME HOW, BY SOME POWER, I GET UP IN THE MORNING WITH PAIN SO DEEP … IT IS YOU, AND FRIENDS, PRAYING FOR ME …My
As always,
:hug1:
Sonja
xoxoxoxo
Thank you NORDAR … please continue … the sadness envelopes usMoe just wanted you to know that you and your family are still in my prayers daily!
Today I switched between Judge Judy … and wondering what was on Oprah … everytime I switched there was a commercial … perhaps … it was my angel steering me away from Oprah …although I would like to watch it … today was probably not a good day.
Dear Moe**SOME HOW, BY SOME POWER, I GET UP IN THE MORNING WITH PAIN SO DEEP … IT IS YOU, AND FRIENDS, PRAYING FOR ME …
I VISITED KK TODAY TWICE … ACHING IS CONSTANT … AMANDA IS AT A BIRTHDAY PARTY/SLEEP OVER FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THIS NIGHTMARE … AS GREG AND I WERE VISITING KK, AMANDA CALLED … AND I RAN TO MY CAR … SHE WAS WORRIED BECAUSE SHE CALLED HOME AND WE DIDN;T PICK UP … SHE IS THE REASON I GET UP IN THE MORNING.
ALL HER TESTS (ECHOCARDIAGRAM/EKG CAME OUT PERFECT … WE SAT WITH HER PEDIATRIC CARDIOLIGISTS TODAY FOR A VERY LONG TIME … HE WAS WONDERFUL AND ANSWERED ALL OUR QUESTIONS. I ASKED HIM IF KK KNEW SHE WAS DYING … HE STOPPED AND SAID, I DON’T THINK SO ---- BEING A TEENAGER SHE WAS PROBABLY MORE WORRIED THAT THE CUTE BOY NEXT TO HER WAS SEEING THAT SHE WAS HAVING ISSUES … AND WAS EMBARRASED BY ALL THE ATTENTION … THAT WAS KK … SHE DIDN’T LIKE TO ATTRACK ATTENTION
OUR PARISH PRIEST WAS OVER LAST NIGHT AND GAVE ME GREAT COMFORT … MY FEAR HAS BEEN, WHEN IT WAS HER TIME AND HER HEART STOPPED BEATING … WHO GREATED HER … AND FR. SAID - MOE — HER GUARDIAN ANGEL … I ALWAYS PRAYED ABOUT MY GIRLS ANGELS … I BELIEVED (WHETHER IT IS TRUE OR NOT) THAT KK HAD MICHAEL THE ARCH ANGEL AS HER GUARDIAN (MCKAYLA IS THE FEMALE FORM OF MICHAEL) AND AMANDA HAD GABREIL … SILLY I KNOW - BUT IT WAS ALWAYS IMPORTANT TO ME … THAT THEIR ANGELS WERE WITH THEM ALWAYS …
I AM TIRED TONIGHT AND WORRYING ABOUT AMANDA … I THINK I WILL GO UP … NOT TO MENTION THE RED SOX ARE LOSING TO THE YANKEES
LOVING YOU,
MOE**
**R U SURE YOU AREN’T MY GUARDIAN ANGEL??? … WHO I ALWAYS THOUGHT WAS MICHAEL BY THE WAY …Dear Moe
I am relieved to hear that all of Amanda’s tests came back perfect! and that you are able to go and be with your McKayla, even though it is not the same i know… as i take daddy’s ashes out every now and then and that comforts me as he is not in a cemetery or crematorium as yet… he will be placed in my mum’s coffin when the time comes for God to call her home… Ooh, let’s not go there…far too emotional for me… I am a 41 yr old baby!
It must be of some peace of mind for you to know that McKayla knew of nothing that was going to happen to her…
As for the angels… i believe deeply in angels and have some books on them, one written by a Catholic priest. I read here on CAF today about Guardian Angels and how some people know the names of theirs. I have never thought to ask mine his/her name? I must do that… They say that they are surrounding us all the time, and especially at Masses where they surround the altar. I have tried to imagine that when i am at Mass - just all these heavenly angels surrounding the altar - awesome!
Amanda now fears for you Moe and for Greg. You two are all she has and the poor darling girl knows it too. You will be her rock, and she shall be yours. Actually you ARE her rock, and she IS yours, that’s better!
It will be hard for you without Amanda for the weekend, but it is good for her to enjoy life as God has planned.
No need to EVER say thank you to me Moe, as i said before, for some reason i feel drawn to you and your pain. If i can be of any help whatsoever… that’s what i am here for.
Try to get some sleep tonight… Give that DH a great big HUG! and snuggle up to him sweetheart. You are both grieving and he is hurting watching his beloved wife crumble… He loves you and you are blessed to have him.
I love you right back! BTW my football team the Manly Sea Eagles - who are on TOP of the ladder in Australia - (and so far had only lost 1 match out of 11) lost round 12 last night… i am not a happy little birdie!
As always,
:hug1:
Sonja
xoxoxoxo
Hee hee, you nearly made me pee my pants with that one! I do have family address labels with little characters representing my family and a notebook both from vistaprint and i *do have a **halo *around my head for a laugh! One day i will send you one so you can see for yourself. :angel1: I am getting myself psyched up for it… May go find a huge rock and try to crawl underneath it for 48 hours… At the moment i feel very, very strong, and cannot see myself going batty like last year, but i also know myself very, very well and i can get *very *emotional, very quickly. I truly do wear my heart on my sleeve! Oh what to do? Go to a Church for some peace maybe? Have a Mass said for my daddy definately and put him in the Church Bulletin… alright… now i am getting teary… I was hoping that i would be ok this year… Trying to be strong, sometimes i wonder why and what for - you know… Then i look at Braden… I watched 2 stories of this Oprah too and I couldn’t keep watching it because my heart was aching so we left to go grocery shopping. My heart goes out too all these people as well as you and your family Moe. I hope your pain lesson real soon and I continue to pray for you and your family!!
We want to do something … just waiting to it doesn’t hurt as bad
Hi Moe
Thinking of you… Yesterday at Mass, i offered up my communion for the four of us: you, my daddy, my mum (as she is very sick) and for me to fall pregnant…
**Thank you … **
Not looking forward to Sunday…
That is the secret … look at Braden … love him, hug him, smell him … don’t let him go … he is your pain-reducer … you can do this!!!
Thinking of you…
As always,
:hug1:
Sonja
xoxoxoxo
**Don’t you worry about making me sad … can’t get any sadder I don’t think … and what you suggest is very important and we will definately do some type of aware campaign … that I can promise!