Again, I dont know what to say. I dont know if this will help, but my daughter and I were almost in a horrific car accident the other day. I dont know how to describe it in detail except that at one point, I was driving THROUGH both lanes of traffic on the yellow line with cars on each side, and we got out without hitting anything and without a scratch. It was the middle of the day and it happened in an instant - and I’m a very careful driver. anyway - the point is that after I came out of shock - I was seriously in shock, I realized that honestly, that should have been my time to go, but for whatever reason, I am still here. Its not FAIR. Maybe mean people should go and good people should stay. I dont know how God works, all I know is that for whatever reason, your darling little precious angel is with God.
I can not pretend to even imagine one second of your agony. I am serious when I say that. I am not trying to make it all better or anything. I think you are showing a kind of faith and resolve that frankly, I’m not quite sure I would have in the face of what you have gone through. But at the same time, I know that it is because of you that there are many times during different days that I pray a prayer for you, and for your daughter, and then hug my daughter, and think that it isnt fair that your daughter went and that me and my daughter are still here. Again, I dont know all the answers, but you have made me pray harder for you and for my family. I am sure that doesnt bring you much consolation, but I had to tell you. I hope that I dont make you upset by saying any of this. Its from my deepest heart to let you know that it is so often that I think of you. And pray for you. And admire the strength and vulnerability both that you show.
Praying for you always,
Vester