Sudden Death of our 13 Year Old Daughter

[Wammy101]

As many of you may know, im not really the praying type, but… im gonna pray for you daughter. i know she will watch over you, and be there for you, your own little angel, with a pure heart of gold.
best wishes and loads of sympathy,
Wammy

 

[MGEISING]

Hi Moe:heart:

Thinking of you… Went to confession today and afterwards Braden and i lit some candles for our loved ones and we lit a special one for McKayla and i asked our Heavenly Mother to look after your baby girl, and for you to find some sort of peace…

**You said that you don’t feel him - that’s because you are numb and empty. **

I dont’ feel hm or feel my baby girl … I feel so lost at times.

Love Moe

 

[MGEISING]

Hello,

I am so sorry for your daughter’s death. I will pray and light a candle for her. I can’t imagine the pain that you and your family are going through. My fiance and I lost his grandmother a year 1/2 ago and it seems like yesturday. The best thing to cope with the pain is to pray, and keep your family close. Family and friends make it better to cope with lost and slowly move on.

My prayers are with you and your family.



Love,

Gladys

** Thanks Gladys … someone at our parish had a Mass said for KK yesterday - we went to the early service because it was said at the 8:30 … it was beautiful, especially it being Penecost Sunday … but aching I guess is a new reality that I will have to deal with until the rest of my journey …**

 

[MGEISING]

Dearest Moe,
Tonight after Mass I will light a candle for McKayla and for your family in coping with this loss. I am praying for you daily. How are you lately?
Love,
Lissa

**
Lissa;

Thank you! One day seems to run into the next.

It is a long weekend … so I am not as distracted as if I were working …although I don’t get done a lot at work either.

Greg and Amanda have been busy re-doing our barn. We are getting horses … so it is a very good distraction for them.

I wonder how long it will be until I will be able be distracted … we visit her everyday, sometimes twice, she is only 5 minutes away from our farm.

I miss her … thanks for the prayers and please keep them coming.

Love Moe**

 

[MGEISING]

Hi Moe

Thinking of you… went to Mass this morning and asked for extra strength for you…

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxo

**thank you so much, everyone for offering candles and Masses up for us … I am stronger than I was 10 weeks ago today- even if it is only for a short time … I ache for her, I miss her …

There is just so much sadness in the world … STOP, I WANT TO GET OFF … is how I feel at times.

A neighbor stopped by yesterday - I think to see how I was doing, but I think I helped her more in the end than she me. She is going through a divorce and my heart just ached for her.

I told her, think of the girls, they are your life … and part of me wanted to say … nothing can be too bad with both of your girls still alive … but I couldn’t and wouldn’t do that … she just needed some comfort.

Pain Pain Pain everywhere.**

 

[MGEISING]

As many of you may know, im not really the praying type, but… im gonna pray for you daughter. i know she will watch over you, and be there for you, your own little angel, with a pure heart of gold.
best wishes and loads of sympathy,
Wammy

**Wammy - thank you … I appreciate it that you will be doing this for us.

I realize our time here is only a minute in God’s timing … it is just … well, her without us, just doesn’t seem ‘us’. It isn’t fair that this happened to us. Even when it first happened, so many people came up to us and said, no not the Geisinger’s … because they knew we were a very close family.

I can’t fathom for the life of me why this happened. OUr world has ended … and now we must survive until our journey is through. I am just praying for strength, because there are days that the strength isn’t htere.

My love to all my CAF friends and thank you for the continued support, prayers, hugs, love**

 

[FCEGM]

Moe, my prayers have been with you and your family since I first read the news of McKayla’s passing. I just now visited the memorial site and it is a lovely tribute to such a beautiful girl. You are embraced in my heart.

Frances

 

[Tweety]

Moe

I truly feel for you and ask God to give you more and more strength every day. I cannot imagine your pain…

All i can say is that i pray that one day you will feel your McKayla and Jesus around you again. One day at a time…

Thinking of you…

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxoxo

 

[MGEISING]

Just wanted to share with my friends at CAF a paper my God Child Erin wrote about our family and memories of KK. It is beautiful.

May 19, 2007

It was a warm day in May, and I had just gotten out of work and went to my Aunt and Uncle’s house with my mom. As we walked in, their home instantly felt homey, as it always does, but lately, there was a feeling of subtle sadness in the atmosphere. We all greeted one another with lingering bear hugs and warm smiles. My Aunt Moe, Aunt Coe, Aunt Rose, Uncle Greg, Uncle Joe, my cousin Amanda, my mom, and family-friends Al, Paula and their daughter Abby were all their.

Everyone was all together, as we always are. We talk about different topics, mostly reminiscing about how things used to be, how we wished they were, and things that made us all smile and laugh. We all ended up sitting in the living room, the Red Sox game on T.V, all of us arbitrarily glancing to see how our team was doing. We all talked about different rollercoaster’s, the road race that had been on that day, and how Al and Paula’s dog goes to the “Dog Spa”.

Even though we were all jumping from topic to topic, our minds were filled with memories of McKayla. Their seemed to be a void in the room, a hole, a large space that no person could possibly fill but McKayla, and no one can heal the sadness everyone was feeling, but her.

Throughout the discussions, we would all mention something about KK. When we talked about rollercoaster’s or a movie and someone would say “Kayla loved that” or “She
loved to go on those types of rides”. After the thought, their would be a brief moment of silence, as if we were all listening with all our power to hear McKayla’s laugh again, or feel the warmth of her smile was she walked into a room, remembering the glow of her face. After all of our conversations, we went to go eat lunch. At the table, we all were laughing so much about Al’s
dog. My cousin Amanda had the hiccups. I have never heard someone have hiccups like she does, she sounded so funny. She kept taking scoops of peanut butter to make her hiccups go away.
After lunch we all went into the living room again. All of us were laughing hysterically at silly things all of us had done.

We laughed at how my dad ran the 5K that day in memory of McKayla, my Aunty Moe asked if I had to get poop out of the pool again today, because it had happened my very first day of work.

My Uncle Greg told a story of, as he puts it, “One of the most top ten classic moments ever to happen in this house”, when in fifth grade, I had just gotten my saxophone for the Strafford School band, and my very first day of band. I had wanted to show everyone how my saxophone sounded. So, I opened up my case, took about ten minutes to set everything up, the saxophone, putting the reed in place, and then, I put my mouth on the end of the saxophone, and I just made this loud, off-key, honk; then I took apart my saxophone, and put it back in my case as if I had just played in a Symphony Orchestra. Everyone laughed, especially me, because I love the way my Uncle Greg tells that story.

I have had so many memorable days with my family; every single moment with them, down to the very second, is a moment I treasure. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful and caring family. This is a very recent day, and a day that meant a lot to me. Just the simplicity of being with them, all of us together, and laughing and smiling. It’s such a simple thing that can
make someone so undeniably happy. When I am with them, it is as if the world outside doesn’t exist, all of the horrible things that have happened, happen, and will happen eventually, have never been even heard of. Everyday I spend with my family, I learn something, and I feel like I become a more mature being. To put it in the simplest terms, my family is amazing.

 

[StratusRose]

Moe,

I thought of McKayla this past weekend. My husband and were working on our new house and had the radio on. The song on her memorial website came on, I stopped washing the dishes and listened to the lyrics. They were so beautiful…I thought of your family and the sadness you are feeling.

That’s all…just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you…

SR

 

[MGEISING]

Moe,

I thought of McKayla this past weekend. My husband and were working on our new house and had the radio on. The song on her memorial website came on, I stopped washing the dishes and listened to the lyrics. They were so beautiful…I thought of your family and the sadness you are feeling.

That’s all…just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you…

SR

Stratus Rose:

You know - I turn off my sound anytime I go visit my KK’s site, which is many times a day. But that song is so appropriate … who would you be today …

Thanks for sharing that with me … and please continue to keep us in your prayers.

You guys are a lovely couple …

Love MOe

 

[masondoggy]

Moe, I just skimmed through this whole thread and just want to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. I wish there was something else I could say that would comfort you, but I know there’s nothing I can say.

I know that Jesus is carrying you right now, and he’s feeling the same hurt and sadness right along with you.

And I also know that when this life is over and you are reunited in heaven with your little girl, all this pain and suffering will be wiped from your memory and it won’t matter anymore.

I think it’s normal for your faith to be shaken right now. I will pray for Jesus to restore your faith and give you peace and assurance that this pain is only temporary and your baby is in paradise right now…and you WILL see her again. And OH! what a day that will be!!!

Remember to offer your sufferings up right now. Don’t suffer in vein! Your offerings can help save so many souls and help so many poor souls in purgatory and I am sure that is what your DD would want. She will be pleased.

 

[puppylove]

Hi Moe: How are you feeling today? I am praying for you as always… I’m glad you made a week @ work. Thats a great milestone for you. Hoping that your pain lessons somehow… That was a beautiful letter your niece/godchild wrote. How wonderful to have such a family…

Hugs, Lori

 

[MGEISING]

Hi Moe: How are you feeling today? I am praying for you as always… I’m glad you made a week @ work. Thats a great milestone for you. Hoping that your pain lessons somehow… That was a beautiful letter your niece/godchild wrote. How wonderful to have such a family…

Hugs, Lori

Hi Lori:

Life is so hard … it is an effort to get out of bed … I (we) just miss her so and still feel the shock of knowing that she will not return to us …

Thanks for checking in — like I have said before, we had heaven on earth — and thank God for it everyday … it isn’t like we took it for granted.

Love, Hugs, Moe

 

[MGEISING]

Moe, I just skimmed through this whole thread and just want to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. I wish there was something else I could say that would comfort you, but I know there’s nothing I can say.

I know that Jesus is carrying you right now, and he’s feeling the same hurt and sadness right along with you.

HE MUST BE BECAUSE I KNOW I AM NOT CARRYING ME … I HURT, MY HUSBAND HURTS, AMANDA HURTS, HER COMMUNITY HURTS, FAMILY HURTS … DOESN’T SEEM LIKE ANYONE CAN HELP ANYTHING BECAUSE WE ARE ALL HURTING

And I also know that when this life is over and you are reunited in heaven with your little girl, all this pain and suffering will be wiped from your memory and it won’t matter anymore.

i KNOW … IT IS JUST GETTING FROM HERE TO THERE THAT IS THE PROBLEM …

I think it’s normal for your faith to be shaken right now. I will pray for Jesus to restore your faith and give you peace and assurance that this pain is only temporary and your baby is in paradise right now…and you WILL see her again. And OH! what a day that will be!!!

I CAN’T WAIT FOR THAT DAY … IT CAN’T COME SOON ENOUGH - BUT WITH MY LUCK I WILL LIVE TO 200 YEARS OLD … AND I DONT’ WANT TO …

Remember to offer your sufferings up right now. Don’t suffer in vein! Your offerings can help save so many souls and help so many poor souls in purgatory and I am sure that is what your DD would want. She will be pleased.

YES I TRY AND REMEMBER TO OFFER IT UP … ALL I CAN SAY IS THERE ARE TONS OF SOULS BEING LET OUT OF PURGATORY - BECAUSE WE HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE THAT ARE SUFFERING IMMENSELY

Thanks!!!

 

[Tweety]

Hi Moe

Yes, it was a beautiful peice to read… You really do have an amazing and loving family and you are blessed to have them.

I feel as if you may be struggling a bit more the last week…

You won’t be here till you’re 200 - and if you are you will definately be in the Guinness Book Of Records… God will call you home way before then sweetie… If you were in heaven right now, then Amanda wouldn’t have her mum and Greg wouldn’t have his wife and that is another scenario isn’t it… Can’t win either way sweetie… But i do know those empty, numb feelings Moe, even if it was my daddy and not my child… It’s just that it must be so much worse for you, and that upsets me as i know what i went through…and still go through…10 days and it is 2 yrs since daddy died…

My prayers are with you every single day Moe… I ask God to give you, Greg and Amanda strength and peace in your hearts…

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxoxo

 

[MGEISING]

Hi Moe

Yes, it was a beautiful peice to read… You really do have an amazing and loving family and you are blessed to have them.

I feel as if you may be struggling a bit more the last week…

You won’t be here till you’re 200 - and if you are you will definately be in the Guinness Book Of Records… God will call you home way before then sweetie… If you were in heaven right now, then Amanda wouldn’t have her mum and Greg wouldn’t have his wife and that is another scenario isn’t it… Can’t win either way sweetie… But i do know those empty, numb feelings Moe, even if it was my daddy and not my child… It’s just that it must be so much worse for you, and that upsets me as i know what i went through…and still go through…10 days and it is 2 yrs since daddy died…

My prayers are with you every single day Moe… I ask God to give you, Greg and Amanda strength and peace in your hearts…

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxoxo

I think I have hit some bumps in the road

 

[mommyof4]

Moe, I just wanted to let you know that you and your family continue to be in my prayers.

 

[Tweety]

I think I have hit some bumps in the road

I felt it… I will say extra prayers for you, i promise Moe.

I am here - always… I wish i could ring you and you could just scream down the phone at me - if that would help you release and get some emotions out… or just be silent and listen to you sob - whatever it is.

I don’t know what to say to you Moe except that i send you all my love and hope that one day you will smile again…

Dear Lord,

Moe’s only human,
That’s all she is,
Help her believe - in all she can be,
In all that she is.

Show her the stairway,
She has to climb,
Lord for her sake, help her to take
One day at a time.

One day at a time, Sweet Jesus,
That’'s all she’s asking of you,
Give her the strength - to do every day -
All she can do.

Yesterday’s gone Sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be hers,
Lord for her sake, help her to take
One day at a time.

Lord, please give Moe the extra strength that she needs to get up every morning and function… Heavenly Mother, you know the pain Moe is feeling, as you yourself saw your beloved son Jesus - nailed to the cross. Somehow, please ease the pain that Moe is feeling and all the sorrow, emptiness and numbness that is surrounding her.

Amen.

I am here for you anytime, all the time Moe

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxoxo

 

[MGEISING]

I felt it… I will say extra prayers for you, i promise Moe.

I am here - always… I wish i could ring you and you could just scream down the phone at me - if that would help you release and get some emotions out… or just be silent and listen to you sob - whatever it is.

I don’t know what to say to you Moe except that i send you all my love and hope that one day you will smile again…

Dear Lord,

Moe’s only human,
That’s all she is,
Help her believe - in all she can be,
In all that she is.

Show her the stairway,
She has to climb,
Lord for her sake, help her to take
One day at a time.

One day at a time, Sweet Jesus,
That’'s all she’s asking of you,
Give her the strength - to do every day -
All she can do.

Yesterday’s gone Sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be hers,
Lord for her sake, help her to take
One day at a time.

Lord, please give Moe the extra strength that she needs to get up every morning and function… Heavenly Mother, you know the pain Moe is feeling, as you yourself saw your beloved son Jesus - nailed to the cross. Somehow, please ease the pain that Moe is feeling and all the sorrow, emptiness and numbness that is surrounding her.

Amen.

I am here for you anytime, all the time Moe

As always,


:hug1:

Sonja
xoxoxoxo

That is the most beautiful prayer I have ever seen … I am going to start saying it. You are a gem … xoxo Loving you, Moe