Sudden Death of our 13 Year Old Daughter

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mom4truth said:
Dear Moe,

I just now got access to McKayla’s website. I never could before this a.m. She is very beautiful. What a smile!

**A week before her trip she had her braces removed 😦 … She was breathtaking … her school picture doesn’t do her justice … the picture with her in the Red Sweatshirt best resembles her … although a couple of years later. **

I have goosebumps thinking of her and you. I feel like I EVEN miss her! You will always be in my prayers. Take care of yourself, hon.

I am trying mom4truth … but it is so hard … missing her, terribly … but I am walking every day - I am getting to work … even though I have to close my office door to cry … I am still here. I only know it is from prayer from all our friends and family … our communities … life is so very sad 😦

Love,

mom4truth

p.s. Does she look like you?:hug3:
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She was my reflection (although she is breathtaking … she was left handed like me; we sat together and held hands every night at dinner; she was so much more than me … I should have been the one to be taken … not her … she was just starting to come out of her shell … she was an accomplished pianest and straight A student … kind, loving … just isn’t right that the isn’t with us anymore (physically) She wanted to be a neurologist 😦
 
mom4truth said:
Dear Moe,

THANK YOU for thinking of me and my family at Mass. We definitely need prayers. There is no current medical treatment available for my daily migraines. How am I going to take care of my kids?

I am still praying for you and your family. You are always in my prayers, Moe.

Love,

Judi/mom4truth:heart:
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**For you migranes, have you tried Acupuncture? I was talking to a lady at work and she did that and it helped … matter of fact - she doesn’t get them hardly anymore? Or have you tried Homeopathy? I haven’t … but I know a couple of peole who swear by it and if you have exhausted all medical hope! **
 
MGEISING said:
Yes, Did you get my email?

5 months today 😦
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I’m so sorry Moe…it must be really hard for you. Hugs, hugs, hugs!!!

I didn’t get your email. When did you send it? Try sending again…I’m thinking it went in junkmail so I’ll change it to be safe…
 
puppylove said:
I’m so sorry Moe…it must be really hard for you. Hugs, hugs, hugs!!!

I didn’t get your email. When did you send it? Try sending again…I’m thinking it went in junkmail so I’ll change it to be safe…
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**I resent it my friend … thank you for the continued prayers. Amanda went school shoping today with my sister, her God mother and bought tons of stuff. Amanda texted me and told me that her school supplies only came to $90.00 and it was a steal … and in my heart I automatically timesed it by two … 😦 Missing her so very much and the waves are coming stronger with the upcoming school year.

Some one asked me how I was doing and I always so OK. I wish to God I could say great … because it is far from great. We just miss her … and can’t imagine life without her. I am walking and continue to make it to work … but there are many moments during the day - I just want to curl up into a ball … and at those moments I offer up my pain … it doesn’t lessen it by any stretch … but I feel that our faith tells us to do this … to hopefully save some souls in purgatory … I am not sure … but there are so many parents out there who have losted their children … I can’t imagine that purgatory is bulging from the sides … the pain is so great … and we are continuing to offer it up …hourly at times.

Please continue to pray … and Lori - email me to let me know how your friends are trying to cope. I know they aren’t doing well … how can they when the very part of us has been losed.

I still feel abandoned by God … but I know he is there … I just need to get passed this pain.

Loving you from NH.

Huggles,

Moe

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Gosh Moe, I bet you can’t believe it’s been 5 months since you last had your daughter. I included you in my rosary last nite as usual. I feel just awful for you. BUT - God will take care of you. How would you be able to continue functioning if He didn’t? I know there are still no words that will comfort you. But I’m trying to comfort you in spirit. Take good care of yourself, Moe. I wish I knew you and your family. God bless, hon!

mom4truth:hug3:
 
MGEISING said:
**I resent it my friend … thank you for the continued prayers. **Please continue to pray … and Lori - email me to let me know how your friends are trying to cope. I know they aren’t doing well … how can they when the very part of us has been losed.
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Moe: I’m thinking you have me confused with the other Lori (Lori K)…

I didn’t get an email from you so I’m going to try and resend to you via my work email…

I pray for you daily Moe! I firmly believe that God is asking me to do this!

Huggies, Lori
 
puppylove said:
Moe: I’m thinking you have me confused with the other Lori (Lori K)…

I didn’t get an email from you so I’m going to try and resend to you via my work email…

I pray for you daily Moe! I firmly believe that God is asking me to do this!

Huggies, Lori
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Sorry about that Lori … Thank you for caring and praying — Love Moe
 
MGEISING said:
I still feel abandoned by God … but I know he is there … I just need to get passed this pain.
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God would never abandon you. If He did, there’s no way you would be sitting at your chair right now typing on your computer, or getting out of bed, or…breathing. He is there for you even though you are in too much pain to notice.

Your wounds are still soooo fresh and raw. It will take time for them to heal. But wounds always do, even though they may leave a scar. God will get you through this. There will come a day when you will want to smile again, even though your still going to miss your little girl. God will get you to that point.

Hang in there.
 
Hi Moe,

I’m glad to hear that Amanda went school shopping, I think about her and say a special prayer for her when I pray for you all daily at Mass.

It must really be hard for her, I’m sure she has her own way of dealing with the loss of her sister. It is good that the school year is going to start again for her.

I can only imagine how it must have felt for you not preparing for 2 to go to school this time. Everything is so different now, like momof truth said we can’t in any way take away your pain. We are however here for you spiritually you are all always in my prayers. I know that eventually the horrendous pain you feel will ease God loves us so very much.

I live in NY not that very far from you perhaps some day we can meet I would like that very much. You take care!:hug1:
 
masondoggy said:
God would never abandon you. If He did, there’s no way you would be sitting at your chair right now typing on your computer, or getting out of bed, or…breathing. He is there for you even though you are in too much pain to notice.

Your wounds are still soooo fresh and raw. It will take time for them to heal. But wounds always do, even though they may leave a scar. God will get you through this. There will come a day when you will want to smile again, even though your still going to miss your little girl. God will get you to that point.

Hang in there.
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I see him - and I know he is with me - I am just not feeling him … but in time
 
Nordar said:
Hi Moe,
Hi Nordar!!!

I’m glad to hear that Amanda went school shopping, I think about her and say a special prayer for her when I pray for you all daily at Mass.

Thank you … she is having such a difficult time - they were best friends. They had their own rooms but still slept together … KK always ended up with Amanda … it is so sad with out her … we are all just going through the motions … and the pain is 24/7

It must really be hard for her, I’m sure she has her own way of dealing with the loss of her sister. It is good that the school year is going to start again for her.

She is focusing on horses … she takes riding lessons and she also volunteer’s at the Riding Academy where she takes lessons. They love her … and want her to help after school a couple of days. We are in the process of getting a horse for her - we will be ready by spring. She says she thinks of two things 24/7 … KK and horses … she is such a loving and sensitive kid - I worry about her.

I can only imagine how it must have felt for you not preparing for 2 to go to school this time. Everything is so different now, like momof truth said we can’t in any way take away your pain. We are however here for you spiritually you are all always in my prayers. I know that eventually the horrendous pain you feel will ease God loves us so very much.

**You are all helping us live hour by hour … and just reaching out helps so much … no one can help anyone during this horrific event … I hear only time. I am having anxiety about the holidays … they were so special at Shear Bliss Farm … Christmas morning the girls would get Greg and I up at 3;00 AM. Greg would run down to put on the video camera … and the girls would be on the top of the stairs … holding hands … anticipating what they were about to encounter … it will be so very different this year … I pray that I have God’s grace to get through it.

Greg mentioned about going away … but I think it would be important to keep our traditions going … we have about 30 people for Christmas … I think it would be terribly important to Amanda **

I live in NY not that very far from you perhaps some day we can meet I would like that very much.

Oh how wonderful that would be … I have cousins who live in NY … and we were invited to one of their weddings in Sep. Amanda wants to go so badly - but I truly don’t know or plan anything hour to hour never mind accepting an invite to a wedding and not showing … I am praying about it … It is my cousin … who is a NY Fireman and lost his whole Ladder on 9/11 … he happened to be on vacation … taking his daughter to Chemo Therapy - she is cancer free now … Amen

You take care!:hug1:
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Thanks … I will private message you to see where you live! Thanks for the hugs and prayers and the love … you can’t even imagine how it helps me with my daily pain living without my beautiful daughter
 
Couldn’t sleep tonight and you came to mind…so I am up and praying for you. :console:
 
You and your family are in my prayers. I cannot even begin to imagine what you must be going through right now.
God Bless you at this very difficult time.
Kristy
 
Duffyo7 said:
Couldn’t sleep tonight and you came to mind…so I am up and praying for you. :console:
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Thank you for stopping in … life is so very difficult … but the pain is softened by people like you!
 
klynn said:
You and your family are in my prayers. I cannot even begin to imagine what you must be going through right now.
God Bless you at this very difficult time.
Kristy
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Klynn - thank you so much … God is blessing us - most especially when caring people reach out to us … God’s Blessings
 
Dear Moe,

Including you and your family in my rosary this a.m. Still thinking of you daily!

Love ya, hon!

mom4truth:angel1:
 
I read your Kind words and open heart felt responses and feel touched by Grace, you are truly a beautiful, Strong woman though you may feel far from it right now, one day you will know just how beautiful and strong you are I have no doubt your girls received so many of the wonderful qualities you describe of them from you.

every time I come here I experience an inkiling of the pain you feel and my heart breaks for you and you family. I always leave here wishing that I could wipe the sorrow and despair from you hearts.

I cannot begin to imagine the grief that you must feel, yet I know that you are a woman of phenomenal strength and determination because you get out of bed everyday and you go through the motion and TRY.

keep on TRYING moe.

and we will keep lending our voices to heaven for you…God Bless you!.
 
jabelltulsa said:
I read your Kind words and open heart felt responses and feel touched by Grace, you are truly a beautiful, Strong woman though you may feel far from it right now, one day you will know just how beautiful and strong you are I have no doubt your girls received so many of the wonderful qualities you describe of them from you.

Yes, you are right I don’t feel strong. I am a wreck inside, lonely for my little girl who I carried and for a short time with both the girls I didn’t want to share them … but of course I had to - they had to be born …😦

every time I come here I experience an inkiling of the pain you feel and my heart breaks for you and you family. I always leave here wishing that I could wipe the sorrow and despair from you hearts.

**Anyone who loves can experience great pain reading this post. If you love then you have a chance of being hurt … I guess that comes from original sin … **

I cannot begin to imagine the grief that you must feel, yet I know that you are a woman of phenomenal strength and determination because you get out of bed everyday and you go through the motion and TRY.

I DO TRY … but sometimes I don’t think it is enough - however it has to be enough for now … because I can’t give more … I try to do what is right … I miss my baby girl terribly - I miss everything about her … and I can’t even imagine having to live life without her … the pain is just so overwhelming 😦

keep on TRYING moe.

With every beat in my heart I will Keep Trying … I promise … although my sadness consumes me … I do keep trying … for Amanda and Greg and of course for my beautiful McKayla.

and we will keep lending our voices to heaven for you…God Bless you!.

**I shall count on it … for it is but for the grace of God (go I).

❤️ Moe **
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Moe,
I am praying for you and your family. I know how hard your life is right now. You are crying out for your baby.
All we can do is pray for you, and I do that regularly.
We love you…
Lissa
 
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