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Mijoy2
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Preface - I attend Mass every Sunday and Day of Obligation along with 1-2 times during the week; attempt to make a good confession at least a few times a year; have attended some bible studies. Most of my spare time reading/researching is regarding Catholic/spiritual matters. I will go on with my faith, I do not intend to leave the faith because of the premise (or thought-process) of what troubles me. I am composing this post to see if any others share (or have had in the past and got past it somehow) this constant troubling thought-process.
However, I struggle with belief. Belief in the Christian narrative and all that goes with it. I battle this day in and day out.
Here is my premise or theory.
I do not necessarily struggle with the thought that the Christian faith is a fairy tale, or a diabolic scheme or anything of any ill-intent. In fact I think much the opposite. I think the Christian faith is beautiful; I feel it’s teachings which seem to contradict world views on matters such as chastity, forgiveness, humility etc are exactly what gives me hope and keeps me hanging in there.
What haunts me is this thought that, over time, and perhaps partially motivated by the fact that humans as the only animal species recognizes that man is mortal and will die, fueled by mans’ intelligence and imagination and with the ingredient of time (thousands of years from Genesis to Revelation) inadvertently crafted the Story of Redemption.
How? Again, time could have played a key role. Stories get told, one to another to another and inadvertently get fine tuned to tell a story. The truth gets whittled, like a log from a tree, into a beautiful sculpture that fits the imagination of the one doing the work. For this reason Messianic Prophesies do not necessarily help my faith. These prophesies could be part of the whittling process, the fine tuning, where the narrative ends up fitting the desired outcome.
I think we have all done it. Told fish stories, where the fish gets a tad bit bigger and the fight gets a tad bit more dramatic with every passing telling of the story. No ill will intended, just a desire to believe makes the story ever so slightly different with each telling, some things get cut while other things get embellished.
How does one best self-refute this nagging, haunting idea?
However, I struggle with belief. Belief in the Christian narrative and all that goes with it. I battle this day in and day out.
Here is my premise or theory.
I do not necessarily struggle with the thought that the Christian faith is a fairy tale, or a diabolic scheme or anything of any ill-intent. In fact I think much the opposite. I think the Christian faith is beautiful; I feel it’s teachings which seem to contradict world views on matters such as chastity, forgiveness, humility etc are exactly what gives me hope and keeps me hanging in there.
What haunts me is this thought that, over time, and perhaps partially motivated by the fact that humans as the only animal species recognizes that man is mortal and will die, fueled by mans’ intelligence and imagination and with the ingredient of time (thousands of years from Genesis to Revelation) inadvertently crafted the Story of Redemption.
How? Again, time could have played a key role. Stories get told, one to another to another and inadvertently get fine tuned to tell a story. The truth gets whittled, like a log from a tree, into a beautiful sculpture that fits the imagination of the one doing the work. For this reason Messianic Prophesies do not necessarily help my faith. These prophesies could be part of the whittling process, the fine tuning, where the narrative ends up fitting the desired outcome.
I think we have all done it. Told fish stories, where the fish gets a tad bit bigger and the fight gets a tad bit more dramatic with every passing telling of the story. No ill will intended, just a desire to believe makes the story ever so slightly different with each telling, some things get cut while other things get embellished.
How does one best self-refute this nagging, haunting idea?
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